俺、いたずらっ子だった 高等学校の頃、随分ふざけていた。ブラジルの公立学校では、生徒は普通に一つだけの期間で、朝か昼過ぎか夜か勉強する。俺、ずっと朝で勉強していた。 ある日は、学校でふざけるため、夜の期間で学校の壁を飛び越えた。校長先生は俺を見つけて先生までに来なさいと遠く叫んで、それがまずそうだったから、俺は先生に構わず走っていて学校の壁を飛び越えた。 家に帰ったとき、電話が鳴っていて出ることにした。校長先生だった。 「もしもし、フェルナンド君のお父さんですか。」 一瞬、素晴らしい考えがあった。 「うん、そうだ。何が起こったの。」と俺は答えた。１３歳から大人の男の声を持っていてよかった。 「えっとー、フェルナンド君が夜の期間で学校の中に壁を飛び越え、他の生徒の成長を妨げています。フェルナンド君と話そうとしたんですが、走って壁を飛び越えた！お父さんは彼と話す方がいいと思います。」 「はっ？あの野郎、何してんの？死ぬほどに叩くんだ！」といって切った。 そう。お父さんを気取って叱ってくれなかった。学校の頃を考えるとき、先生はかわいそうだな〜って。笑

What is purpose? Last year, before going into 2020, I thought over many things about my life and realized I needed to understand deeply something inside of me. I didn't know why I was just keep moving forward. I mean, I knew about it, I felt it, but it wasn't in detail. I started to ask myself: "what is purpose?" A did some quick research on internet about the subject and came to my own conclusion: Purpose is what makes you wake up with a strong desire to live instead of dying and what makes you go to bed thinking how the next day will be the best one. Also, it is the way we want to be remembered. Based on that, I defined my own purpose of life: to carve my name in this world through a bold, vivid life. I want to be remembered of something that I don't know exactly yet, but I also want to live my life to the full. By the way, our purpose might change in the future, because ─ we ─ change. Thank you for reading my text.

What does "strain" mean in this sentence? "Drownin’ away from the start to the end And you’re sailing away and nowhere else to **strain** Come and take my all away So far away from the start to the end And everything seems so veiled and blue Run away, sail away" It's from a song called "Never Again" from a Japanese drama called "Hirugao". Thank you very much.

My journey in the security exchange In November of 2017 I listened an audiobook called "Rich Dad Poor Dad" which talks about being rich in the financial market. At that time, the days were dark, and the nights even darker. In 2018 I started to study the financial market in depth. I pondered about many things. The days became darker and darker. The more I studied, the more I found out that I needed to understand more. The more I found out, the more my wish for power increased. The more my wish increased, the more I found out that "risk" and "uncertainty" are things which will be always present in our lives. Like death: it's always in front of us, but we never know what is going to happen in the next second, and whether it's going to attack us or not. In September of 2019, I started to operate in the financial market. This market is called "futures market". A more dangerous, involving more risk market. A market in which someone protects itself while the other accepts completely the risk. Basically, my total loss is about -$300,00 until now. Curiously, I'm in peace. I know it's hard to understand, but I see things clearly, the opportunities seems so close. Yesterday, I almost got an opportunity in which I would retrieve all my losses until the moment and I would earn profits, in a single day! Due to the crash in the worldwide security exchanges, in March it was harder to operate, and the losses increased a bit. Who are longer in the market says: any loss you'll get, it'll be a lesson. The market will be your bigger teacher. What do you think about it? Thank you very much for reading my text.

自分自身を蔑むってどういう意味ですか？ 日本人の女友達が以下の文章と書いたけど、自分自身を蔑むという文はどういう意味かな。彼女は自分が嫌いですか？それとも、会話の話題が嫌いですか？私達は日本のクリスマスについて話していました。それに、自分と自身と自分自身はどう違いますか？ 「恋人いない人はバカにされたりからかわれたりする。一人ぼっちで過ごすクリスマスを日本の若者はクリスマスぼっちって言われたり、自分自身を蔑む」 よろしくお願いします！