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these days i feel miserable. i keep making mistakes. i am trying to lift up my mood by listening to happy music, but it just doesnt work. it's raining outside and i should be packing my stuff for the school camp tomorrow. i feel like so many people have changed recently, from caring about me to the opposite. i've been helping people around me with their problems, and i dont mind doing that! thats what friends are for, and i like talking to people whether theyre happy or sad. i just cant help but feel like i'm always the one listening. i have problems of my own too, you know. i feel like this is too easy to misunderstand, but i dont want to read it through to make myself easier to understand, since i know i'll delete it if i do. I just want to share my happiness and sadness with the people i call my friends. right now i feel like nobody cares about me, but i know it's not true. i probably just cant see things clearly right now. i dont even know if i'm making any sense. im sorry.

i dont know i feel so lonely and i don't know why. well, actually i do. maybe. i want someone to care about me, but i don't. I just want to be alone, but at the same time.. aah.. this is strange.

Random stuff~ My parents went to my aunt's summer house, so me and my brother are alone home. We're probably going to watch a movie later, since his computer is at his friends' house. Yeah, he usually plays computer all night. Very social haha! He bought lots of candy in Germany and i'm afraid he'll share it with me, since i'm on a diet!! I promised myself that if i stay on my diet 'till christmas, i'll buy something expensive for myself as a christmas present~ i dont know what yet, but probably a dior eyeshadow palette.. I've been drooling over the pink one for a year now haha! Or maybe i should buy a dress for new years eve? Or stilettos?? ah, so many options, so little money.. T_T

Konkylie Lasagne Jeg keder mig som en agave bøffel i sirups asparges.......

Tonight For some reason i just feel like crying, watching a feel good movie and eating ice cream. alone. But i have no ice cream, i have no movies i havent already seen, i'm on a strict diet and this place is full of people. I dont even know why im like this, im horrible haha.. I'm the apple that fell off the tree too early. Please pick me up and let me hang on the tree like i should.

7 reasons why i should let myself be eaten by angry pandas Reasons why this vacation is going to suck big time: 1. My grandmother is dying, and she probably wont make it through the summer. 2. Im single, as always. "Forever Alone-meme" and i.. we're basically the same person. 3. Trip to Paris, Lyon and Hamburg cancelled for obvious reasons. 4. Naked germans on the beach, where i'll spend my vacation. 5. I have no friends anywear near the place i live + the other kids in this town hates me. 6. Maybe i'll dye my hair orange for my grandmother. I look silly with orange hair.. 7. Did i mention that it's gonna suck?! Ay ay ay.. I think i'll be online A LOT the next few months (during to the reasons stated on my list!) and at least i wont miss a single minute of La Tour De France. The danish speaker on La Tour is pervy.. Only good thing is that my cousin who just moved to town ^_^

FarligPuma's notebook entry: May 31, 2011 Today is english oral exams-day..I hope i'll do well, even though i didnt study much. I have plenty of time before its my turn, so i think i'll cook fried noodles :3 My mom promised me i can have another piercing without her complaining, if i dont fail in any classes. I think i failed in math, though -_-

What do you think? I want a new piercing, but i dont know which i should pick!! Luxury issue w Anyway, what do u think? (^_^)