Translation of the the quints mums diaries. Simple, plain words but touching. 时间：2012年3月13日 天气：雨 　　亲爱的宝宝们，现在你们已经快五个月，我可以感觉到你们在我肚子里面动。有时候我肚子会很痛，不过这都不要紧，我最痛苦的就是，这么大的肚子，晚上真的不知道要用什么姿势睡觉！ 　　我晚上都不好睡，背疼、肩膀疼，感觉比以前上班还要累！听人家说，肚子大了以后，会压迫神经。我不懂这些，就是很怕到时候身体承受不了，五脏六腑都无法承受，听人家说到时候连呼吸都会有问题呢。现在我只能整夜用一个姿势躺着，有时候想要翻翻身体睡觉，侧躺一会儿，就会觉得宝宝们都往一个方向掉，好像肠子都被拉扯了一样难受，只好又转过来仰躺。 　　亲爱的宝宝们，我从来没有想过可以做五胞胎的妈妈，真不知道是喜还是悲？我多么希望你们都能健康地生下来呀！田琼 Mar. 13th Rain Dear babies, you are about five months old now. I can feel you are moving. Sometimes it hurts, but it doesn’t matter. What tortures me most is that with such a big belly, I really have no idea what posture to sleep with. I had difficulty in sleeping at night. My back and shoulders hut. It’s far more painful than my work. I have heard that the growing belly will put pressure on nerve. Eventually, breathing can be a problem. I don’t understand the medical terms but I m afraid that my body can’t take it. I sleep with one posture now the whole night. Sometimes I feel like to move and sleep in one side for a while, but it feels like all babies are falling in one side and someone are pulling my guts. That’s really painful and I have to sleep in back. My dear babies, I have thought I can be a mum of quints. I m not sure if I should feel happy about it or not. How I wish I can deliver all you guys healthily! Tian Qiong Wish i can do better to convey the uncertainty yet worries of the mum.

The miscarry of the quints, just some random thought. While i was browsing Beth's notebook entry 《有时候我恨做妈妈》there was this QQ popup of the miscarry of the quints.It got me thinking. Now I feel obligate to fill in some details. There is this amazing mum who are just 22 and 144 cm but brave enough to decide to keep all the quints despite the financial difficulty and frail body. Because its the first quints in the place i live it quickly attracts people's attention expecially when people learn that they are experiencing financial difficulty. The mum and kids bound people together, and the dad keeps update their situation. Mum willing to take the risk of deliver the quints but no hospital would like to do it. They had difficulty in finding a hospital when they finally found one, the lost one of the kids. (For the record, i live in the southeast of China which were supposed to have the health care to take good care of the quints. Anyway thats another story). Today, just now, a week after they lost the first kid, they lost the rest four. Just as the rest of the people who were welcoming the rest four boys (it turned out that the quints are all boys), there was this thunderbolt that they were all gone. I m the opsitive kind who always believe that things will end up good. When there is life, there is hope. But for them, there is no more lives. Enclosed a picture of them. How happy they were!