electronics "women are usually direction and electronics challenged" i use this explanation as my self defendant, even i know it is ridiculous. but in order to prove that i am a modern humanbeings, i bought a midi keyboard-synthesize, confidently, went home. then everything just happened as i imagined, i was very upset by this expensive, complicated little piece of toy. for the money i spent on it , i cant give up to fight with it. but at least i can wait until i come back from bars.

love letter Love letter i want to start to write a song about a family who have been fooled by some fake news about humanbeings can live in mars if they have 100millin dollers.they try their best to accumulate money but still cant have enough money to move to mars.finally in the dooms day , they dead in the earth.......but, its was just a story in my dream. I saw my guitar, i realize i did nothing wrong,but why i cant satisfy myself ?that is because i was not brave enough to be an artist,i am always too sensitive to the environment and afraid of others critic idea of my music.so,i am waiting for some impossible chance.i love my voice and i love my idea.my dream is to be a singer who can make people feel warm and not lonely when they have no confidence in their life and themselves.i think i can make it .whether how old am i ,i wont stop singing. But except singing,what else i else i am interested to do ?! I have a list 1:be a perfect dog walker 2 be a writer (write novels) 3:be a music producer But nothing above seem to be profitable. Maybe i will be a great business women,my professor said that i was pretty talent and smart at doing business. Nevermind,just something in my little brain . (i have an idea,once you said that you want to sent out your cv to companys on your own.why dont we try that tomorrow?) I know i am not logical enough to make you understand every words i said.but i just want to say ,fuck!!nothing can stop me,i am gonna stay with you until you dont need me. Suddenly even a normal night without you sleep by my side can turn into a extremely terrible nightmare.i thought i could beat you when we first started this relationship,now i am losing everything especially myself.love is a losing game.now i prove myself i am capable in loving someone else.nothing compares you. Sometimes i lost words,sometimes i drunk,sometimes i am mean.but it will never change that i am fucking love you. I am listening to a album of a band who named jew"s ear Its good. I dont know whether i can see you tomorrow but i wont forgot your grey eyes forever. All the words above are from my diary today.