I love women I am a student and a man, a mature one. Sometimes, when you are at your hardest part of your live, you need someone to lift you up, hold you, give you the warmth you need. You need someone that you comfortable with, to talk to, to share your problems, and to laugh with. And yet, I have nobody. It is not that I am not good enough to be loved to something, call me pervert, but my standards are high. The girls at my college are no where near of my expectations, and I deserves better. None of them are fulfilling my definition of "pretty". And if I ever become a gay, or at least have "the feelings" towards men, I wouldn't hesitate to point fingers at people in front me for not being good enough for me. I used to be a brilliant student at school, and one of the factors of my success was I was happy, happy to learn in an environment full of beauties. As for now, all of them were just a history. I need them for my studies catalyst, and I need them badly. Sometimes I pray to God that I would never judge people by appearances. God, please help me.

South Koreans and Plastic Surgery I am a fan of Korean dramas, but I was a little shocked after knowing about their obsession of getting plastic surgery. I always thought that they have natural beauty whatsoever. Now I know that it has become so common that it is weird if you haven't had surgery in Korea and you don't fulfill the Korean definition of pretty. It has becoming the country where only the beautiful and handsome can survive. It is frightening, to say at the least. In South Korea, the cosmetic surgical industry and entertainment industry are their most strongest aspect of their economy. Parents are also encouraging their children to take surgeries, like study. It's a little bit harsh to say, but, according to statistics South Koreans have the second highest suicide rate in the world, and in my opinion the answer to why the suicide rate is so high is simple. You know what I mean, don't you? But yet, I still love K-dramas and K-pops and I do love the pretty and handsome actors!

The important things in life A philosophy professor stood before his class with some items on the table in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with rocks, about 2 inches in diameter. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles, of course, rolled into the open areas between the rocks. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He then asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous “Yes.” “Now,” said the professor, “I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The rocks are the important things – your family, your friends, your health – things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter – like your study, your college, your room. The sand is everything else. The small stuff.” “If you put the sand into the jar first,” he continued “there is no room for the pebbles or the rocks. The same goes for your life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your friends. Spend some time with somebody that can makes you happy. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, give a dinner party and fix the disposal. Take care of the rocks first – the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.” - Inspired by the Japanese Drama "Buzzer Beat" -

Computers and biology I am a boy who loves computers so much. I'm learning the basics of programming since I was 14, but my study was halted not so long after that because my parents are urging me to pursue study in biological course, of course to be a medical doctor or something of that sort. Unfortunately, I can't live up to that expectation. It's not that I'm not good in Biology, it is just I can't leave computer for something that I don't interested of doing. Computers are my lifelong companion since I was born. They are always by my side, in happy and sad moment. Even though it sounds a little bit hyperbolic, but it pictures the reality that I just cannot abandon computers to make way for Biology, never! I know being a doctor is a noble job, but being a computer programmer is not that kind of bad, actually. Maybe someday if I can ever achieved to become a programmer, I can manage to make a program that can aid doctors for medical purposes. Who knows. But though, now, as an engineering student, I can only study hard and waiting for the rain comes of after sunshine, and after a dark cloud a clear sky. :)

The ideal age to be Normally children wish they were grown up and old people wish they were young again. Each age has its own pleasures and pains. Childhood perhaps is the happiest age of all. The only thing you do during childhood is play, play and more play. But being a child doesn’t give too much freedom, as your parents would have restricted everything that you shouldn’t do. Adulthood on the other hand, gives pressure to your life. Works, family and finance will drive you crazy if you didn’t manage them well but as an adult, you have the freedom to do anything. Maturity is another advantage for adult to have the ability to respond to circumstances in more appropriate manner. In my humble opinion, the ideal age to be is 20. 20 is the age that lies in the transition between childhood and adulthood. You can act either as a teenager or an adult. At 20, nobody expect to have the maturity that a 40-year-old person possesses. You can also afford to have a family at 20. This is only my opinion. If you think the opposite, do tell me and others in the comment below. Cheers!

Where Would You Go in a Time Machine I have always thought that my life would be perfect if I have a time machine. I would like to go to the future to see who I am going to marry with. Is she pretty? Is she a person who I know right now? Does she have a great body? I would also like to undo my past errs, those undoable mistakes that I have done since I was born. To date, at least there were 10 times when I made my mother cry. I know it will never going to happen, but still I am just wondering if somebody will ever create a time machine. These are where I would like to go if I had given the chance to use a time machine. I have told you mine, what’s yours?

Playing Is playing that important to children? Or it is just a waste of time? For me, it is a norm for children to play and always play, and adults do not have the rights to deny it. It is always irritates me when parents scold their children when they are in the middle of playing something. In my opinion, playing is crucial for children to develop their intelligence, rational, emotional and social quotients. It is the way of their learning process by utilizing their body and senses toward the environment and the world. Development experts are fond of saying that play is the work of children, and cleaning the mess up is the work of parents, unfortunately. Even so, when the children come of age, excessive playing time would be hazardous. In that case, parents should play their role in controlling their children ideal playing time so that their learning development and time would be adjusted optimally. In short, playing is essential for children, and believe me, children are not children when they are not playing.

Is imagination is more important than knowledge? One of the brightest physician the world, Albert Einstein, was famously quoted saying, "Imagination is more important than knowledge." Is that so? He was considered as an absolute genius, and at times he could not even figure out how to do the math to solve the equations he came up with. He simply made a theory with his imagination, and let others proved the theory. The icing of the cake is, Albert Einstein would imagine sitting on a ray of light and would compare situations, and would be able to come up with solutions to problems by using his imagination. This is not really scientific, is it? In my opinion, what we imagine would have to be something that we know, something that based on our past experience and knowledge to produce another new knowledge. Either way, knowledge must top in any list. He also said, "We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them." Is he saying that logical problems need a more creative solution by using the imagination, rather than the conservative way, reading and widening our knowledge to come up with another solution. Nonetheless, there's must something that he wants us to understand, and me till now, never get the idea. Maybe you want to voice out your opinion regarding this matter, go ahead on the comment section.