【TRULY】Please help me.I need some advice of life.Please,one of your word will help me. First of all.introduction. I'm T.Friends call me Tiger or Tortoise.I got depression from two years ago and I had a hard time at those years.I won't said I'm a lovely man but I love my friends and love to help anyone if I can and I never ask for any pay back. I had a bestfriend.let's call him M.M is a guy who I know him at 12-years-old.We have 12 years friendship and I treat him as my brother,I mean real brother,so did him. Here is the ture story: When I having depression at the beginning.It worsen very fast and I can't stop it even I go for the doctor.I still think I can handle it but I'm wrong. I turn into deep depression very fast.I can't eat.I can't fall asleep.I can't laugh.I lost my mine.I know I can't take it anymore so I call for help even I'm not call for help a lot.If you know about depression then you will know how hard to initiative.I call for help to my brother and bestfriend. Shocking!!Nobody answer my help no matter M or bestfriend!I don't know why and I get into a dark life.I don't know how to describe the life with my poor English.I won't forget it ever,.It hurt. I try to suicide few times.lucky my fate was not end like that.I try to learn about depression and try to make myself up.I take the stupid pills even it make me very very uncomfortable.I get thought of depression by myself with miracle. Here is the question: How to treat my brother M and friends after that?I love them but I can't accept they just watch me to die.I don't know why they do that to me. I'm so anger.I'm so anger when I told them my felling and they just find a lots of excuse. I know I'm living at other town and they had no time to meet me.But I never ask for something hard to do.Just an SMS from cellphone is very very comfort for me and I never had one.Is that so hard for my brother and friends with two seconds SMS for me? I don't know how to face them now. Just like before?History once more if having depression again. Just break off relation?I fell so unfortunately. Just talk to them until they understand?Makes me look like begging the friendship. If you were me.what will you do?If you don't know,please ask your friends because I don't have friends now.Teach me.I need help.