A random entry Last night, I dropped my girlfriend and I wanted to drive some and free up my mind with a beautiful song of course :D. I think, it was because she had loaded my mind about some holiday plans. I cannot deny the fact that I have always been fond of making plans and all but recently, I am tired with all. I am going to continue my education in Germany and I have an internship in abroad again this summer. Thus, I am a little unwilling to go abroad for this summer vacation, but for now, I just say OK to her :D. So, I drove some while listening to "Bruno Mars-Talking to the moon" and I think, I was a little tipsy :D. I am trying to find some new hobbies to get some free time from all these bureaucratic papers and work. I have become fond of photography which I used to hate. I am attaching a photo to this entry But, I have to admit that there have been people that turned me into photography. I think, one of the main plus sides of vacation is that you get lots of chances to take photos that's why I try to pick destinations where I can capture nature photos. As last words, I should admit that this is not a planned notebook entry. It's just something that I write when I am free :D

persistence or absence

is not it better leave everything behind and start a new stage of life instead of sticking with people who do not like you(including people who pretend to like you)?

last days I gave a presentation today about non-verbal communication in a company. recently, My gf and I have been employed by Qatar Airlines, although we are going to graduate in two years and gave us scholarships to support our education. The presentation was like crazy. We had to prepare for days. Quecards, OHPs, slides and everything just sucked my life energy out of my body :D It went very well. The people from the company really liked it because it was really good. They told us that we were not different than professional managers. Now, we are supposed to go to the company as interns so soon. it is crazy nowadays :D My gf is like crazy about doing shopping and everything already. Yet, I have no doubt that everything is going very well for us. As I have been told, it is time to move on !!! Then, Krakow, wait up for us :D

Life observations-2 I sometimes cannot stop mulling over that whether my life would be different or I could be happier than I am now. I know it sounds like I am not unhappy which is not true at all. I am very satisfied with my life and trying to live it to the fullest.I have almost overcome some health problems that I have been suffering from. I only care about people who care about me. I am getting into photography and trying to find some hobbies like squash. There is a person who stands by me no matter what whom I completely trust that makes me feel quite happy as well. I have always considered myself as very self-confident with a high self-esteem. I suppose, it is a mistake looking back what happened in the past. it happened what happened, it is time to look forward for everybody. I started to take a quotation from Pavel Nedved as a life motto. He means, people who stay for their favor go, who stay with you for you will always be with you. :D ( that is a paraphrase :D)...

Life observations Lately, I have had some opportunities to think about everything. in my opinion, a person may have difficulties to understand they way another person thinks of him. I think, I let myself believe some things ( I can call them "dreams") for a long while in the past because of that, but I have an entirely different mind now. I can see crystal clear that I do not have any regrets but I wish some things had gone differently with some people in my life. anyway, if they thought the same, I would not be saying that here at all. When a person cares about her/his relationship with you, s/he can do anything not to lose you. That's just happened to me a few days ago. I caught a white lie from my gf which was not even an important thing at all, but I could see the regret in her eyes and how sorry she was. I do not think that I have ever been a quitter both in terms of giving up people I love and my goals in life. of course, in case of people I love, it is a mutual thing. in the other case, I have always been very enthusiastic to achieve my goals in life. thus, there will be some changes in my life soon which I cannot wait for!!!

no title on 19 May 2013, I met a girl on italki whom I heartily liked like nobody else before. I had opportunities to get to know her. after some time, I realized she had become the closest person to me. I think it was the same for me. I thought we would never fall apart from each other in spite of the fact that we live far away from each other. we could have chance to meet each other a few times and we spent one week at each time. it was never enough of her for me. i could never get full of her company. I always wished that it was some more time. I remember that especially second time, I got depressed that she had to go.once she got sick, I was crazy about her. she knew everything about me that even my family did not. she knew everything. she was more than a friend to me. I used to call her "my precious". however, there were always barriers of hers that I could not pass. this situation directed me to behave in some wrong ways towards her. finally, I realized what was going on, but it was a bit late. she did not want to forgive me or because of some reasons she could not. I don't know which one actually. Nowadays, I have a gf who is very nice to me and I love, but nobody is like her. one month ago, I took my gf to a place that I was with her and I realized that I was not enjoying it as much as I was with her there. I am not sure whether she could forget me and everything. strictly speaking, it seems like she has forgotten me already :( but its the fact that I can never forget her and my time with her. all was priceless with her. I know we both were wrong to each other so many times but I forgot all the wrong things. Only thing comes to my mind about her is that she was everything to me and I will never forget her no matter what.

Sleep Paralysis Hi everyone, I was just wondering if anyone has sleep paralysis around here. hmm, maybe, I need to define what sleep paralysis is. its a sleep disorder that while sleeping you wake up, however you cannot move or speak but of course you try to sleep or talk. you have halusinations etc. during sleep paralysis. shortlly, you are paralized during sleep. I had that sleep paralysis twice tonight and it was quite scary. if people who have sleep paralysis can write their experiences and how they cope with that, I will be glad :)