Could you please can explain following extract of essay in a short? I couldn't grab its meaning. (When he died, the stone kept a faintest impression that fit the shape of his head. My mother carried it out, and left it under one of the thirty-six pines that enclosed two sides of the property on which our house stood, the third side the fence where the morning glory climbed. Some days the depression in my father's pillow must fill with rain, just enough to give a cardinal a drink.)

Meaning of' I had to bid farewell" I do clearly remember that dawn when the unsung song of sadness hung in the air, and I had to bid farewell to you all;

Meaning of' I had to bid farewell" I do clearly remember that dawn when the unsung song of sadness hung in the air, and I had to bid farewell to you all;

What does it mean? Her heart would fall a food in her chest.

Could you

continue of former article... Consuming father’s meat and kicking mother, Keeping own killer in a lap, And the wife attached to husband’s bone, The Phenomenon of cyclic world is really ridiculous. Therefore our present parents, relatives and friends had also become enemies. As a consequence our enemies are born as a parents, relatives and friends in this life as the retribution of harming each other in our former lives. It is obvious that many relatives and good friends also become enemy and opponent even in this life. It is uncertain, the person we most hated may take rebirth as a child we have to concern most in next life. Furthermore we should treat all sentient beings with equal love and compassion. The perception of grasping self and other is just a momentary illusion. In reality all sentient beings are equal. In addition we should motivate all beings as our parents and relatives. This notion will not come to our mind instantly but we have to practise it by directing our mind towards love, compassion and equanimity towards all beings by controlling hatred and anger with positive thought in our daily life. So gradually our hatred will be minimized and naturally our life will be more happy and contented. As all sentient beings under goes different suffering, we should try to help with genuine love with our body, speech and mind as a mother does to her child. This altruistic love towards others is called immeasurable love. From our mind there should be willingness to do welfare of others and abandon harsh words and sarcasm from speech. With our body we should not harm other animals and even we should not show hostile expression which may cause uncomfortable and ill feeling to others. Lastly, immeasurable joy means when others are happy and accommodated with all the necessity, we should appreciate and be happy despite grasping jealousy and hatred. This joyful for other should be like of a mother whose lost child has found again.

why there is no distinction between human beings Four immeasurables To train mind with four immeasurables, initially it is necessary to have altruistic thought of separating all sentient beings from suffering and its causes. This altruistic compassion is called immeasurable compassion. Such compassionate thought should not be discriminated between self belongings and others and this thought is called immeasurable equanimity. Even hatred towards enemy and attachment towards relatives should also abandon. There should be complete thought of being all sentient beings as an equal- no high and low cast, white and black, rich and poor etc. At present situation our parents, friends and relatives have feelings of attachment towards us and on contrary our enemies have immense hatred towards us. The reason behind all these are due to non-analyzed and ignorance. In our uncountable rebirth present enemies had also been our parents and relatives. They had cared and loved us. Similarly the persons who are our parents and relatives in present life had also been our enemies and opponents in former life. They had saddened and harmed us. As a story goes, while a bodhisattva named Katayana was going for alms, he saw a woman carrying a baby in her lap and eating a fish deliciously. A female dog was waiting for the bone with brimming water from mouth and suddenly the woman kicked the dog and let it go away. When the bodhisattva sees with his foresight, the fish was rebirth of her late father and the female dog was her late mother. The baby she was holding in her lap was the enemy who had taken her life in former life and the child was born as retribution of her past actions. So the bodhisattva was astonished and recited the following verses.

continue..............2 However without attaining the stage of either Hearer (Shravaka), Solitary realizer (Pratyekabuddha) or enlightened Buddha, there is no other approach to liberate from the cyclic world. Anyhow both the Shravaka and Pratyekabuddha are the disciples of the Budhha who followed the teaching lesser vehicle. In the former case they listened to the teaching and taught it to others. Similarly in the second case having heard the teaching they went off and obtained to realization in solitary practice. Among Shravaka, Pratyakabudha and enlightened Buddha, former two perform only for self benefit and self liberation. So as they haven’t fully abandoned and attained the field of acceptance and rejection, once again they have to follow the path of Mahayana to attain the status of Buddha or enlightenment. Thus without following the path of Mahayana there is no alternative to achieve the enlightenment. Thus generating the mind of altruism is the single entrance to the path of Mahayana. Bodhisattva is someone who has generated the true mind of enlightening himself for the sake of other sentient beings’ liberation from suffering and practicing of ten perfections. Similarly all the former Bodhisattva had enlightened by crossing this approach. So the foremost thing to rescue self and other from immersing from the ocean of suffering is to generate the mind of altruism which with is the thought of Bodhisattva. To engage in the path of Mahayana, we have to train our mind about the four immeasurables, arousal of the mind for enlightenment and training of aspiration and engagement for the liberation of all sentient beings.

The teaching of generating mind of altruism is a entrance to the path of Mahayana If we don’t take the advantage of having a fully endowed human birth, one day we will pass away. So, after our demise we have to reincarnate in any of six beings in accordance with our present actions. Again taking rebirth in any beings, we have no any momentary ultimate happiness rather than suffering. So we need to find an approach to liberate self and other beings from the vast ocean of cyclic world. The fundamental things to liberate from this suffering are to abandon the ten non-virtuous actions and to practise the ten virtuous actions. Moreover, a mere practise of virtuous actions assists us to rebirth only in fortunate beings, i.e., human, worldly god and demigod but cannot liberate from the root of suffering of cyclic world. Furthermore to liberate completely from the suffering and attain the ultimate happiness or enlightenment, initially we are tend to generate the thought of definite release from cyclic existence wishing freedom from the cycle of unending suffering with Samsara and secondly our mind should be fully endowed with the thought of ultimate altruism like of the Bodhisattva. ........................> continue to next note entry

half of former note entry....... Moreover the suicide case has tremendously increased all over the world. What is the secret behind it? There is nothing any vast deep rooted reason rather his/her longing of skipping from problem of family, work or failure in certain field. Moreover he/she assumes that the death is the end of life and difficulties. Does he/she really be unchained from those problems by owning this method? They don’t perceive that they have to rebirth in any realm and has to cross the same hurdle or even worse than that after death. Anyhow without purifying or minimizing our sin is present life, again we have to undergo its consequences in next rebirth. So it is vital to know that death is just temporary end of our physical body but not end of soul. Once our life is initiated, we must reach our destination that is death. Until and unless we will not achieve Nirvana or enlightenment we have to travel through the cycle of birth and death. Attaining the stage of Nirvana is only possible to detach from cyclic suffering. But we cannot attaint the stage of Nirvana unless we accumulate virtuous actions for hundreds of rebirths. Soon its attainment we are totally detached from suffering of cyclic world. However Nirvana can attain only in human life not in other realms. Therefore human birth is most precious than other beings. In human life we have leisure time to hear, learn and practice Buddha’s teaching which show us the path of eternal happiness or liberation from all the sufferings. On contrary other beings have no such opportunity due to the respective defilements, ignorant and suffering.