為什麼我都交不到朋友? 我真的很想找一個語言交換的夥伴用試試好好的練口說，我也相信很多人跟我有一樣的需求，可是我掛在這平台上好幾天了，每天發送僅有配額的兩封交友信件，都是石沉大海，覺得沮喪Orz......之前的好人兒也莫名其妙約不成了，不是這個平台不user-friendly，就是我可能還沒適應它?Anyway，希望不是甚麼龐大的國家機器或是金錢暴力在後面搞鬼，總之anyone who speaks English saw such a disappointed me, please help me~My question is why I can't make any friend here after several days' ' add as friends'. I just want to find someone to practice speaking via Skype. I just feel a little bit ...frustrated.

Let's talk about dream How many people manage to do whatever they want to do in terms of job? Does a doctor really want to be a doctor? Whether it is possible that a lawyer was keen to quit her/his job to be a full-time pianist but fail to make it? Why we cannot do the occupation of interest? If we get the chance to shift our present job to another one that closely associated with our hobbies, will we become happier or it is nothing but another misleading lie? I am coming to the crossroad of choosing a work that betrays my idea and go for further education that fosters my dream. I made up my mind to apply MA in Drama & Theatre in the UK. This process could be disrupted anytime if I cannot bear the criticisms, which implicate that studying in this field is jobless and only a waste of time and money, from relatives and society. People around me might persuade me that I should regard it as a leisure and go to find a 'profitable' job, find the balance between them, which is commonplace choice for every normal person.However, I do not want to be an amateur forever, who knows little about theatre and fear towards critics, finially gain little confidence on stage when approaching an quite old age. It is arguable that a degree is not so important if you really desire to do what you want to do, but we have to realise that in this society the title is vital, namely, people usually judge a book by its cover and abandon it after reading the mediocre stuff that it contains. In this way, those who do not have a decent degree or resume( including practical experience) could never be granted an opportunity to show themselves because their application would be eliminated at first stage, although they have strong passion. After severe struggles, I say to myself: if someone encourage and support me to be an actor when I was young, then I will be one. However, I grew up among these negative values towards being an actor, which has made an irreversible damage and eroded my courage, I have to follow the 'civilized' way to do that. Although I cannot deny the rich nutrition I might reap in the future institution, I still feel a little bit sad about the decision, about my weakness. I just want to receive a professional training and be part of that world. After fulfilling this dream, I can do whatever the society asks me to do if it still proves that I am not suitable to be an actor or stay in that world. I hope I could have a clear mind and stick to what I want, although the future seems to be murky.