Recent trifles These days I have been to write letters of recommendation, which stressed me out. Writing judgements to oneself is one of things I am not good at. Sometimes I think the self is the only entitled one to evaluate himself, but sometimes it is weird for me to make comments on myself because I can not assess ego as a bystander. As to others, they even do not realise my inner self from my showed characteristics. Yesterday I saw a movie, Irrational Man. I think Woody Allen is not a director who tend to drag deeper in human beings, he just state the facts, how could this thing be running and sometimes murder is his usual ploy. So compared with other movies which put more attention on deeper and profound human nature, Woody Allen is not my best choice.

Jotting on 28 February Today I went to five book stores for buying cheaper books with a friend who's knowledgable. After that, we went to Peking University and national library of China which making me exhausted.

Today's activities Putting most of my time on applying for an one-year taught programma of UCB today, my next step is to draft a personal statement which frustrated me a lot. I tend to think the thing I am doing is in vain because neither any research programs I participated like other applicants nor advanced writing capacity assuring admission committee that I am an outstanding student. Those two advantages making me get discouraged and feel depressed. At the same time, here is a new finding about myself, i.e. there are few ways for me to release from the pressures of life. I used to read comics or browse microblog but now I think they are merely consequences of unconstructive procrastination. I plan to do yogas as a solution of facing stessful things.

Jottings on 16 Feb.2016 Last night I wrote my course paper but still doesn't finish. I read others' doctoral dissertations for inspiring me to offer points and meanwhile polish my rhetoric. Stressing.