16th of Aug 2016 i hate holidays , I only wanna sleep most of the time . other know that i'm so active ! that's TRUTH but I'm big lazier in holidays so this is why i hate holiday , i love to be productive person . i planed to work with SASP in this week but because the dork driver traveled back to his country from 21th of June and he will at 15th of September . i'm so excited to start study at the university . also i miss all my friends and i'll try to meet them all .by the way ! the holiday was not too bad , at least i had time to learn my interesting things .

Automation you are fired ,why ? after they made robots we don’t think you have opportunity to work . you should do what robots say ! . people will stay in their home and laziness huge them , the process of give and take won’t happen because machine work with machine . soon the robots will control the world . we made robots to have orderly life but everything change to worse . after days the robots don’t want live with humans so they start to murder them . jay was dreaming , but who’s know! maybe dream become true .

choosdee 24th of May 2016 i feel wonder , i'm always complain when i get holiday , also in the weekend i don't feel happy because many times my driver busy and my friends , so i'm just stay in home . NOW when my holiday started i'm just write schedule of things that i want to to do it in summer holiday .i planed to learn new language , i don't think it's new because i learned first part form this language . Germany it's my favorite country and language . i used Quizlet , it's very helpful . my heart in Germany and my body in UAE . how much i miss German ! when i was walking there i thought i'm walking in big museum or in gorgeous panting , i think maybe I'll take my things and travel to German without my father knew , i wanna do it , but its difficult a bit because i didn't get my bank's card . and about my friend , i got new friend call BOOK , it's perfect friend , i can find it any time i want . there is one friend i wanna remove it from my list forever , i'm not happy with her , she is always made me sad & for all the time , i wanna stop talk to her but maybe later i'll feel bad for what i did , i dunno what i have to do , i wanna leave her but maybe later i'll miss her , this is what i feel afraid of . what do you think ?

what's happen ?! i always know what i want , but honestly sometimes i want cry because really i can't understand (ME)!!! i suddenly love others and sometimes i hate them for no reason . NO REASON !! no wait a minute ! sometimes i hate them because i didn't got what i waiting for , or mostly they are forget me then i start do the same for some of them or sometimes i only stop connect with them . some people are good with me then sometimes for small thing happen i start angry of them . that's not good (me) , hey dear , there is no smoke without fire . i always leave my works and chat with others , i give them MY TIME !! i said for my self ( those my friends and because i love them i'll listen to them and later i'll do my works . how d*** i'm , are you now wondering !! did you know why i said ( d*** ) to my self ? because my friend talk to me when they only feel bored . about me! most of the time i felt bored , i talk to them , did they reply ?? NO . i feel sorry for my self . i don't know what i have to do with them , they are important in my life , yeah ( MY FRIENDS) but i don't know if i'm important in their life :( , this is my mistake , i let others love me because i always help them , so some of my friends keep me , because they want me help them . i'm only the machine that make them happy in their life , after work sometimes they forget me . but wait (ME) ! maybe they are busy or they're not happy with me . okay okay i won't tell you ( YOU SHOULD BE MY FRIEND ) at all . i don't need others to I be happy , i wanna be happy by my self .i want others follow me , i want them happy when they see me . but hold on (me) !! what's that , isn't nice to be selfish person . okay , sometimes i keep dream until i dream unrealistic things , so forget what i said . i felt bad when i see my best friend her/his best friend isn't ME . the wise people say: the patience is a virtue .Moreover, my friend's friend after long time they became important in my best friend life .so can you wait (me) ! i will do same things that others do it for me , but not always!! , WHY ?? because maybe they say or do bad things , then i have to do same thing to them ?? never i'll be MORE BETTER THAN THEM , i'll leave them and relax . you have to live the life that you love , the life will never come to you and tell you : ( hey don't be sad and live me ) . we have to diced for our life and we have to control our emotions . in addition , give time to meet your friends but after you finish your works .

Happiness for ever There is a lot of good and bad things in our life . We have choice to choose one of them .wait a minute dear ! I don't mean in whole your life you have to choose good things or only you have to choose bad things . The good things are always better for us but sometimes we need to choose bad things to learn or to got pleasure . And hey the bad things we Call it bad because it's hurt or damage us put its give unrealistic happiness . There are floor , Stairs and sky . If you still walking in the floor others will think you are dork . And if you walk on stairs to sky . Then you'll be in sky and you'll find a lot of sweets , so what you'll do ? Of course you'll start eat sweets then you'll not stop eating . Okay dear let me explain for you . I advice you to be in the middle . Because if you in the floor you look not educational and if you in the sky eat sweets soon you be tired then you'll died . I don't mean don't eat sweets , no at all , eat sweets but not too much because eat sweets more than enough isn't good for health . Now look ! When I said floor I meant old life . Okay I know you are wondering and you ask your self , what she's mean !? Look some people wanna live like old people and sometimes they prefer live separately , they aren't educational and they don't want connect with others like they are close with them self . And the stairs , it's mean everything in our life help us to got what we want . Finally , the sweets up the sky is everything nice in the life , we feel glad when we got it like money etc . My suggestion is Take everything gradually . Don't be close person and learn from life , don't feel bad if you lose something because if God take something from you soon God will give you something much better . And I hope all the best for you all =)

How you make your self happy ?

a language partner i'd like to find a language partner, who's i'll connect with .i want english person who's speak British accent fluently .  

White & Black oh me ! many times I advice others and tell them don't put your happiness of some people . but hold on ! did I do that ? no, I mean sometimes I make my self happy by dong something that make me enjoy and sometimes I said I will be happy if I see someone or if I got something ,then I feel happy but for few minutes . you know !! sometimes you are happy when you talk to others but it should not be all the time . there is one thing I hate it on my whole life , when I talk to someone for months then gradually s/he talk to me less than before , hey I miss you a lot ,and I miss that's days . you leave a beautiful things in my memory like : songs , pictures and video .hey don't worry because I care about you and you are important person in my life , I won't pressure you at all . do what you want I don't mind . I wanna tell you something : do you know dear ! it was amazing days , we was talking all the time , share several things and we sometimes had same situation .now what ! I'm a lone , this is me !! the nice moments in my life is for few minutes . I dunno why this happen ! all the people that I love them , they leave me , okay why !! I'm human I have heart beating and thats really affect my day and mood . but did I let others know that I'm sad ? never I will keep smile for others and I won't let others think ! just think !! that I'm unhappy because I don't like people think I'm weak person . well we all have the white and black sides in the body person that's mean we all same ,but hey who's read my entry ,we look same but still there's a different too . the white side is happy and black side is sad , each person is different because the percentage of the white side are more than the black side or the percentage of black side more than the white side . you who's I miss I wanna say to you ; always I'll be there , waiting you , and if you leave me , I wish all the best for you and I want you enjoy in your life my dear . * sometimes when you talking about your emotions to some people, they think wrong about you , so the best way to say by typing what you suffer about then you will be fine and glad :) Note : sorry if I make you feel sad and sorry if my entry has mistake .

this is the life we as person we need who talk with , who enjoy with . stay a lone is will make us from first minute suggest to kill our self . but stay alone not always worse idea . we need to stay alone for a bit , we need to be deal with our self before we be deal with others . have friend is a hard thing can anyone got it in this time , I think because we aren't have patient when we choose them .and please don't be stupid and choose anyone then quick be friend because soon you are'll not be friend any more . the life has taught me a lot of things , and some of lessons was too hurt to me but what can I say , this the life. now !! lets back continue what we was talking about (FRIEND ) , there are some points you've put it on order . for instance, this is a human ,s/he have family , isn't only YOU who connect with her/him . some people want find friend who stay with them most of the time and they want a imagination things . but wait a minute dear!! look to your self first , did you have what you try to find it on your friend . let me tell you something : we are HUMAN not ANGEL . our time isn't only for you , we have work . its another topic thats took most our life , oh work and study , we can't live without it , because easily the fish can't live without water !? , if there is no work ,will there is no money . if there is no money !! how we can provide our self ? there are nothing free in life you have to pay if you wanna keep a live . hey hold on , don't be upset ! do you know !? is the best things on our life are free , what is ? the health , love , family , happiness and time . you can't buy it. not all rich people are happy , okay i deal with you dear , MONEY is nice thing I dreamed to be rich but later what ?! , its to have free things that i mentioned and have money , but hey i told ( this is life ) maybe later its will let you choose between ( happiness and money ) so what'll you choose ?! In consequently , be careful , its hurt to stay alone without friend . some time you feel jealous when you heard friend's stories , you hope if its happen to you . I don't know !! but sometimes you wish if you don't have friend . the world is strange sometimes .or maybe Im strange person because I say the real things . note: i wanna improve my writing skills ,I'll be glad if i find who's help me , and thanks :)