The first serious deal in my life. Couple of my buddies have decided to take a mortgage. Both of them weren't born in Moscow like me. We became a friends when we had meet at university. We used to lived in student residential together and devided a common room. Guys found high-rise flats in silent residential area. It takes no more 30 min to the city centre by train.They found difficult to make a renovation themselves so I offered my help. Now I'm renting a comfortable room but there are neighbours in the next one. This is a serious disadvantage. After a few conversations with Mom we wanted to buy an aparment in the next house which is being built now. I'll have to get into debts obviously I won't able to pay all money back soon. It's long way to make payments every month during 25 years. It's scares me a bit however I plan to clear my debts faster! It's only important to be able to keep my job and I'm going to supplement my income by getting some part-time work. I hope it's a reasonably price and good interest rate. Also our downpayment is slightly more. If my Mom didn't help I would not dream about it until I raised enough money. Actually I have no choice and time to put this opportunity off because prices constantly goes up and now is the best job for taking a loan in a bank. Eventually I spent a big money for renting for the last 9 months. That's why my guys decided to pay for own place. Anyways I'm a man and I need to have a place for my future family although I'm just 26 and I have never been abroad yet. It's impossible being sure that everything will be okay. It makes me happy and sad at the same time.

I'm going back to writing. For the last six month I haven't been writing here anything. There were a few reasons but if I gave up improving these skills I definetely would be wrong. There's no good not to use the opportunity like this. So I will try to keep going on writing. First of all I'd like to start from learning progress. I had a break which lasted 3 months when I was working on the second job in fall. It was necessary because it was my the first time in Moscow after I had gone away to my hometown in 2017. I hardly could make ends meet then so I planed to take off to China. Actually this idea was the main reason to learn English but when I got temting offer to work in Moscow I though there was no point in moving in China.Moreover I've managed to look for the job for my girlfriend who joined in a bit later. However I didn't want to lose my result after two years. I won't forgive myself if I stop. Now everything is ok, I have a steady income and make a living. It affords me to keep up my English with tutor. I feel how my level is going up step by step. Although I wish I could study as better as I did year ago. But I realized that a small problem happened. My plans were changed so I cannot come up with alternative. I'm short of motivation because I don't have to use English every day. I hope I got my priorities right and I'll able to find a new task. P.S: Sorry for this long text. I'm just trying to catch up. Please if you decide to edit cut out the wrong sentences. Thank you a lot!

What does money mean for you? I've been living in Moscow for a month and two weeks yet. At last some days ago my girlfriend moved to me. We looked forward to this event as we have not seen each other since september. I met her after my work in the Railway Station. She had a very heavy luggage so we had to take a cab to arrieved to my new appartment. On tuesday she's having a job interview. We hope everything is going to be ok. Actually we planed her moving later but my classmate reported me that there was a job for my girlfriend with decent income of course I agreed at once because looking for a job usually takes a time. Sometimes a lot. If she gets this job I will able to leave my hard second job soon. I'm a cooker in fast food cafe as I mentoined before. I already changed my work location and I don't have to spend time to commute to my work. It is a place a few minutes from home. It's an important advantage. We will manage to make common budget, buy and pay what we really need. In my opinion money is not a goal it's supposed to be a tool to achieve your goals. There is a difference. It might not makes you happy but it can make your life more convenient and comfortable. Money let you develop your skills and wishes rapidly. Now this is one thing what I can think about.

Comeback to Moscow Hey everyone! At the previous text I wrote about proposal to work in Moscow which I accepted enjoyably. Today I have been living for a month here and there are some news. It might be not intresting cuz this is routine's story but this is the best point to improve my grammar and vocabulary,right? I got the job by my specialty (I looked forward to it) by the way I didn't expect there will be an awesome work schedule. I'm working 24 hours after it I'm available for three days. Moreover this work is not so difficult. So I found the second job like part-time cuz I need money now.additionaly I managed to rent a room (the first two weeks I lived in buddy's apartment with him and his family.) I didn't want to bother them a long time. A couple of words about my second temporary job. Unfotrunately it's not cool enough. I'm teller in a fast food restaurant. There are two significant disadvantages. the first one is to commute to the work place and I have to work for 12 hours. dispite of there are two breaks up for lunch anyway it's problematic to do. Because I almost don't move. I must stand and to take orders from our clients. And at the end of the day my poor legs always feels so tire. In couple of days I'm making the shift to the restaurant which there is near my home. Plus I'm going to work in the kitchen. Moving ensured)) I'm sure it won't be easy however I hope it's going to be better than now. Life is strange. Today you have nothing to do but tomorrow you don't have free time at all.

I keep moving If you are reading this text now I'm on the train and I'm coming to Moscow in several hours. When I tell some stories about me here I feel I'm like a writer or kind of blogger. I've lived to Moscow for five years when I was a student.I left this awesome city in 2016. Later I was living in Kazan during a year. There I met my girlfriend, we even rented a flat together. Then I decided to move to my hometown because of the lack of money. It was 6 months ago. All of this time I tried looking for a job but unfortunately I wasn't able to find it. Three days ago I got a buddy's call from Moscow. He offered me what I wanted so much. By the way it wasn't a singular attempt. I didn't think a long time and packed my luggage. Now I'd like to reach a success at least. Only God knows everything I hope he is on my side in this case. We will see later.

Wrestling At the previous text I told you about my diffidence. As method to struggle it I decided to have a wrestling activity. In the past I had a boxing classes so I know how I have to hit my rival properly. But I think the wrestling is more effective than boxing in the street. You can have a control of body of your opponent. However I've never had this experince. Despite of this circumstance I'm not a weak guy and I feel I can handle it. I don't want to get a professional level, I just would like to get new skills in order to I'll able to save myself and my family.Every russian man stumbles a rudness of people everywhere in our country: on the street when you are driving, in the queue when you want to buy something etc. I'm ready to pay money for classes but there is a problem: I live in a small town and I don't manage to find a place for adult people. Each place prepaires only kids. If I lived in Moscow like earlier I would not encounter this issue. I'm sure only sport can help me. I guess my idea will do the trick in my case. How do you get a confidence? From what?

How to get confidence? Last days I started to pay attention on my mental condition. I don't hear strange voices in my head and wish to kill somebody doesn't pursue me)Lol I just don't feel comfortable. Where is my confidence? And why am I thrilled all time? I haven't managed to find an answer yet. When my smartphone is calling I get a small panic attack because of fear to recieve bad news. I always don't want to have a smoke. So I cannot tell about it anyone. Thanks for this site that I can keep an anonymity. They're going to think that I'm a coward. Sometimes I think so and it freaks me out. I'm not a weak guy, I can fight because I had boxing classes. In a nutshell my thoughts bring me to get a help from physiologist. Generally people in Russia didn't use to look after their mental condition. It happens because of lack of the money and free time. Me too. I'm snowed under. I'm looking for a job for the last six months so there are no cash. I'm depressed plus this nasty feeling. It's good I can share it here. You think what might it be? (Please If you have own opinion about what I wrote make a comment below).

I'm your favorite Rapper I made a russian rap music in the past. There were three men in our rap group. We often took part in music events in hometown. When I became a student and moved to Moscow I started to make songs myself. I had a little success I even had people who like my stuff. By the way I got a respect from participant of popular collective. He was successfull even twenty years ago. His personality is very large in russian rap stage and his band have a lot of concerts all of the country. There was an opportunity to collaborate with him but it didn't happen. My gang and I recorded a lot of tracks together and I did it without my buddies. Then there was popular old school rap when you are trying to bring a deep sense and interesting stories to your audience. Actually I don't like my old materials It seems it doesn't sounds pretty cool. But everything changed when new school got on the top. For the last 5 years I haven't dropped anything. Although I started to listen to music in other way. Now I have a good flow, rhymes and I can give bright emotions when I'm killing a beat. Finally rap is a hard competition among young guys who want to get recognized. I can write a song but to create a good idea is the most difficult thing for me now. In the present I'm interested in rap music of black people. It's a pity I didn't listen to it earlier. We always are going to be henchmen. Despite of this circumstance, I hope I'm recording some new stuff and guys will be liked my new style.

Social networks I have stoped to post my photos in Instagram and vk since October 2017. Vk is like russian Facebook. If I'm honest it is not challenging. I like to take photo myself besides I'm handsome guy but now I think there is no need to show my life everybody. I probably got older or I don't have anything to exibit. Also I even don't post photos with my girlfriend. She agrees with me so her instagram page is almost empty too . There is wise proverb in Russia it sounds "Happiness loves a silence". It means if you tell everybody about your happiness or success, it's going to finish soon. Although I'm carrying on to observe other's life. Where my friends went, what they did and what kind of recreation they had. Actually I depended on "like" sign too however now I don't give a shit. Of course If something interesting happens with me I will post it. For instance if I went to abroad I would show it. Also I'd like to mark when people say about their plans in spite of they had not done anything. Premature statements looks so stupid. I'm trying not to do it a long time.