Sharon's notebook entry: Feb 06, 2011 We don't need to apologize for who we are. It's been a long time since last time i wrote my feelings down. actually i started to doubt about myself that could i express my own feelings clealy. Recently, i always think about what love is.Apparently,this is because i fall in love with someone and she finally leaves me.But i'm not going to say how we being together those days, i just have some questions about myself.Yes, i love her very much,more than i imagined.And then i feel a little guilty cause i find myself never really cared about my friends and parents,not from the heart i mean.It's more like a responsibility or nature does.So her leaving really broke my heart and i feel like the most important part of my life has gone.I have planed to connect some friends so i can get rid of the miserable feelings for a while.But i didn't do that cause i don't think i can get what i want.It seems that i can only get real happiness just from the one i most love.And other activities with other people are just like a social duty for me.Like i'm a person who should have many friends,participate some social activities,respect the olders.I mean i'll tring to do something seems right,but it's not what i really desire to do. All these feelings are not i want,i hate it.