Let's Talk About the Weather Instead
Who would have thought I would end up teaching English? Not me. Honestly, that wasn't my plan at all, but you never know where life will take you. My life has changed a lot in the past few years. Sometimes I cannot recognize this person I've turned into. Some may call this "growing up" but I feel that it's the opposite; I feel that I am becoming more and more immature everyday. One thing remains the same though; I am still as dark and depressed as I used to be, or maybe even more and even worse. I spend my days eating snacks and being miserable in bed. Every. Single. Day. At the weekend I go to work pretending to be sane and waste all my energy to teach English to a couple of people. When I get home the same overwhelming routine starts again. I want to change this. I will try my best to become a productive, creative person. So, I'm back to writing journals on here again. It used to be my only hope. Writing was my only joy, and now I've lost it too. I've lost all my interest in everything. *Sigh*
I will try and write a little note here everyday, hopefully it will help me through these sick times.
Peace & Love
Seda
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Hi Seda! I'm sorry to hear about your depression, I hope it gets better for you D: Depression is like a big dark hole...
Anyways, nice to meet you c: