what does "I should be dancing. I didn’t fall apart"mean? “I didn’t let him hurt me. Not this time.” Abra clamped a hand on her mouth as the tears came. “Not this time.” Maureen sat beside her, drew Abra into her arms and rocked. “Sorry. Sorry.” “Shh. You’re okay.” “I am okay.” But Abra held tight. “I should be dancing. I didn’t fall apart—until now. I did everything right. He didn’t hurt me. I didn’t let him hurt me. It just . . . it brings it back.”