Self - Destructive Today I am somewhat destructive Although I am happy and by your eyes, I long for Today I am at the same point as before But I have a thousand reasons to look forward I want to know if I follow more or take shortcuts And I don't know if at this point I go up or down I don't know what I say, nor do I think what I write What's more, I don't want to think about it I know very well what I am looking for and maybe I don't want to find it Don't go let me get there Say goodbye or just see you, no more Sometimes I dream that a river passes by my side And it takes away what I had cared about I look up and see everything that comes That also, in part is yours, and it is what sustains me most Don't go let me get there Say goodbye or just see you, no more And I dream that the river takes me away from important things But I know that without looking at you I can see you everywhere And today I am, today I am somewhat self-destructive Even though I know that I am happy and because of your eyes, because of your eyes I lose my way Is that I long for