Life is out of my Control

I'm always asking myself, "What do I want to do or what do I need to do?" Can they be one in the same? 

I go to school on time and I go to work on time.  I don't know the meaning of my job; it seems to only be a tool in my life.
I love to travel, and I especially love to stay out of the office. But the reality of things seems so cruel.

I need to work to support my life, but I dislike this kind of lifestyle. I'm afraid I will stay in such a cycle of life forever. I have become lazy and I don't like walking anywhere anymore.  I seldom tell this to my mom because I do not want her to worry about me. Sometimes I lose control of my feelings and I become angry and upset with myself.
How can I change this situation I am in? I believe that if my boss gave me a raise and reduced my working hours, then everything could be much better.