Choice of friendship i always have a question , when i asked me , i cant answer . there are someone around with me that my living will been influence ？ maybe I am not a firm girl ， I ofthen asked somebody what should I do . and I always do something similar to somebody . I think I am doing sth imitate somebody ，such as speaking or some bahaviors . in fact ，I hate these . I want to have some change . I should finish my homework on time . when my teacher has been told me what is it later . I should knoe keep contect with somebody ，and I should far away somebody . I learned a lot of bad habits from these person .I must far away these person. maybe friendship no have respectively ，but I must chooce someone who have the same ambitions . although ，I want to be friend with everyone . but I cant use youth gambing the future . sometimes ，chooce very helpless . but I am have to chooce . when one has been successful ，they will have friends .The level of friends decided on what position you are in, and with what kind of rights. I feel sad for these dead friendship . but this has become a can not be changed in nowdays . I dont want to fall into . I just want to do what I want to do things quietly. So give me more courage to persist, more tenacious in the face of all the bad things.

IN WINTER in the winter , i lose my best friend . she is my first friend in my college . we can drink beer together , we can eating meal together , we can do anything together ,we depended on each other . we think it‘s the only one of each other . but no reason ,we are became far away . more and more far . we have no way to hear heart sound from each other . i feel sad ，so crying . cry for me in college first friendship is over . Cry for a once very important people go away my life . in life ，many things I cant control . I feel me is very failure . I cant make something well . I hate myself ，Hate myself for not doing things the courage. Hate myself, not to let others like myself. sometimes ，I feel sad . because I always do what I no should do . then I always asked what should I do . no one can answer me . maybe I cant help myself . I am really an timid girl . I think myself is silly and stupid .

I WANT TO I want to be an tender girl . I want to my character became serious . I want to be an international accountant . I want to future will live in America . I want to have an man more love me . when i feel tired time . I want to have a depand on person . when i feel loney time . I want to have a man to warm my heart . when i feel hungry time . i want to have a man can boil rice for me . I just want to let me become outstanding . I just want to have good time everyday .

Informal essay 总在想，这一生是为了什么而存在。 Always think about ，why did I live in the world？ 也许是因为知识浅薄，也许是因为问题太深。 Maybe I don’t have enough knowledge, maybe the problem is too difficult 所以我迟迟找不到答案. So untill nowadays I cant know the answer 我们总是不知足的想成为其他人。 We are always not satisfied and want to be someone else却不知道自己正在被别人仰望着、 Do not know being others look up to 轻易地就看到别人的幸福， We always easy to see the happiness of others 然后缩在角落舔舐着自己的不幸。 Can only hide in the corner to lick their own grief.

I need help ? who can help me ? I need an accountant . I

A boat there is a small boat ，from southest flow to northwest ， and from northwest flow to southest . bear the weight of how much longing, bear the weight of how much illusions,come and go without durance . time rolls on light and darkness takes turns. Beautiful boat had been not in the past no longer with great splendor and glitter. passed the storm and crossed the dangerous shoal . Longings had been become vague ，dreams had been broken . where are make me anchored side shore.where is my sheltered harbor.

when I . attention you ，I feel sad . when I were attention your information .the means is that I want to give friendship to you and i will use my sincere and enthusiasm to treat you . but if you decided to reply nothing of me . I will think you dont like me or I were disturb you ， even I think you arent respect me . so I will must be cancel attention about you . waiting going to have a deadline ， that no one like that waiting was no result for long time . I think that if you want to get some things , it will be depended on were you paid for it much how ，otherwise it was unfair .

this is my ideas ， in that moment when the weather become colder and colder .more and more I miss you . when the Siberia cold wind came here .I know that i were missed the first snow .i love the color of snow . love its so pure 、clean . the Snow had been down , because it is not love, so it can coldly to anyone. it's so beautiful with terrible . if I want to cry ，I am look forward to snow .I can go out and stand in the snow ，when the tears stay time ，the snowflake that falls softly on my face ，and then melt . when the melt snow into water and tears together，I love the cold have a warmth. I just a simple girl .when I want to cry ，I will cry . I can laugh when want to laugh loudly. sometimes， I would like to become a bird ，it's so free .fly in the blue sky . I can touch the white clouds . kiss the sunshine . if I can‘t became a bird ， I want to be a tree .so brave ，so tough to grow up of very tall . from a seed ，arch breaking ground germination .but i cant be others . If I have to have a chance , I very like can be like snow, a short life, apathy after melting, emerge of itself and perish of itself.

First notebook entry: Introducing myself I'm a chinese girl .My name is kary . Because I want to make many friends with a lot of people , so learn English . I’m a cheerful girl who loves laughing . My greatest avocation is musIng. I can stay by myself for a long time without feelIng disconsolate In the least .