Do you believe in ghost? Sometimes I hope ghosts are really existed, even though we can’t see them, we can’t touch them or hear them. I like an America TV drama name ghost whisperer, a young lady can see and communicate with dead people, so the ghosts came to her for help. They asked her to send messages to their family or help them to do something they haven’t done yet. The ghosts showed in some sort of frighten way and scare the young lady and me. They looked like the moment they died and that was really not good looking at all. The young lady managed to help the ghosts to cross over and it was not easy. By the way, the lady has a very handsome husband who understood and supported her. What a perfect husband! Mots of time it was a happy ending and the ghost finally walked into a bright light and disappeared, maybe they went to heaven or someplace they could find inner peace and rest forever. I sat in front of the screen and cried like an idiot because the love of parents, lovers and friends always touched me. It reminds me that deep in our hearts, love, hope and gratitude and other beautiful things are still there and will never die.

To be thankful I know that thanksgiving is past, but it’s okay to be thankful all the time, right? Thank my parents for loving me unconditionally, even though I am not a so-called good daughter and they just be there to be my warmest and strongest shelter. Thank my old friends for supporting me whenever I need them. I complain my work to them, I cry in front of them and they comfort me all the time. Thank my co-worker for letting me know I can’t control everything and how lucky and precious to have a cooperated team especially when you no longer have one. Thank my body for being healthy so I can earn my living and even travel sometimes. We take it so grated that we don’t cherish it until we lose it. Thank myself for trying to be happy and positive. Life is hard for me, life is hard for most of us, so I thank myself for not giving up, I am still trying to become a better person, to be proud of myself.

Sunshine and old friends make me happy Today is a sunny day and it is not very usual. The basic colour of my city is grey in winter. The clouds, fog and haze are the most common things. So it is really nice to see the bright sunshine go through the window and cover my whole body, so warm and cozy. One of my friends will come to my city for business next week. We have been friends for over 16 years since I we both were in high school. She lives in Nanning city in Guangxi province and it is at least 1200 kilometers away from my city. We only met 2 times in the past and it will be our 3rd time next week. The funniest thing is I have travelled with her friends without her. We asked her to go with us but she was not interested in the destination. Sometimes happy is simple, sunshine and an old friend is enough. What a pity we can’t enjoy hot pot this time because her throat is inflamed.

I am not good at management I have a 7-people work team and I have been managed it for about 4 years. I have to admit that I’m bad at management because my team is not a good team anymore. It lacks of cooperation and compromise, sometimes my team member accuse each other of being irresponsible and ungrateful. They both think they do the most important and hardest work and underpaid. All of these make me think, what is wrong with my team? How could it end up like this? What did I do or not do to make it happen? My team worked well at the first 2 years, then something came up, a new general manager was assigned to our city. He was not satisfied about how we work and he made some change, then I found there were some crakes in my team. I think my biggest problem is always trying to ignore the bad signs and pretend it’s all right. It is NOT all right though, I know it deep in my heart.

The meaning of life What is the meaning of life? We all have to die one day, then what is the meaning and point of your life? How do you plan to spend your one and only life? Have you ever thought about that? Some people tell me not to overthink, just live your life, be simple and happy. Well, I am not that kind of person, I am not content of being simple and happy. Yes, it is important, but not enough for me. I want my life to be meaningful, I need my life to be meaningful. I know there would be lots of obstacles waiting for me. You are still single, you are too old to restart, you are too naive and unrealistic, they say so, I ignore it. I am not 20s anymore, so I know there won’t be many time I can waste and I don’t want to waste time anymore.

What do you think of AI? Do you fear of AI? Have you ever thought that you would be replaced by AI one day? I have. Last week the CHO (Chief Human Resource Officer) of our company told us that at least 35% of employees will be replaced by AI in the next few years. She told us we had to make some change and improve ourselves to follow the trend or we would be abandoned by the time. I know I am in the 35% and I do not think I love my job which I have said many times in my notebook. I am an office clerk, by the way. So it makes me keep think what should I do to cope with the changing world. I think AI is great, powerful but fearful, maybe it is not as scary as in some science fictions that the AI robots will dominate the world, but we do have to pay attention to it. We have to keep learning and improving to adjust the changes. To be replaced or to be more adaptable depends on us.

Do not ask too much for something which is free You know it is funny to realize that there are always someone who will ask too much. Maybe they think it’s your obligation to help them even though you don’t know them very much. They are neither my family nor friend, why on earth that I have to help them? Why do I have to help them for free? Get out, who do you think you are, that is what I want to say to them. I help you because I want to help you, I don’t ask you to pay me back, so if I do not help you anymore, you have no right to judge me and accuse me. Please back off. I learn that sometimes I can not be too kind, people will take advantage of me and they don’t even appreciate what I have done for them. When you come across these ungrateful people, just leave them alone and do not bother to help them, they are not deserved.

What are you thinking when you’re running? I used to hate running. I just didn’t know so many people like it. It is exhausting and boring, I didn’t like it until three years ago. I have to admit that the purpose was not for fun. I wanted to impress someone, he liked running, so I started to run to show him that I like running too. Now, he is no longer in my life, and I still run from time to time. Running is still exhausting and boring for me. It is not interesting at all. When I’m running, I don’t think too much, I just keep telling me to hold on, to run another round, to run longer. On the other hand, I keep complaining that I must be crazy to run. Someone may say that they’re thinking when they’re running, but that is not for me. I am struggling when I’m running, I am swaying between holding on and giving up. Sometimes I hold on, sometimes I give up. The important thing is that I won’t say I will never do something again. If someone told me that I would like running three years ago, I would say it was impossible. I know that anything could happen on me and only time can tell what kind of person I will become. It makes me feel great, the possibility is great. One more thing, please protect your knees when you’re running. I haven’t run for about a year because of my right knee. It is still hurt sometimes so I can not run now.