A new step of ladder in my life . It's been about half in a year before last paragraph , likewise the "pain" last time ,that's what i called . Now i am already a graduated student of college , like every normal people also trying to get a good preparation of our next step of our future . I am a guy who like keep going on something what i regard in , i am telling myself not to confuse , follow the emergency step try to make a good shot . After that "pain" i called , i like to get used to be quite . Doing anything in silence , more thinking do not make myself over happy. So far so good , maybe i will write next of it , regard it as a announced.

Just can't go wrong , weak myself up . That’s the first time i wrote down something which is about trail in love , i just went through . I don’t know how to describe what i fell and how helpless , hopeless , anything like a lovelorn guy should gain . About a month , i didn’t a entirely sleep , a feeling in my heart substitute my spirit also feel like stronger than it to bare me . Something bizarre that i know i am bust with it , so i loss my control in expression to display an expression like cry , just weep , no expression . I don’t know how long i can support myself maybe you can also say that how long could i quit or how long i will loss in hell , maybe i will get out of it not anymore , because i really don’t know how is it of me now , the worst is , i don’t know how worse am i .