My wish Why am I feeling the futility? Isn't there anything I'm seeking in this world, or just am I not suitable for what I want? Maybe I should make efforts to be the one required, but this doesn't suit my wish. So, am I selfish? Even so, I am going to seek this.

Her beauty Superficial beauty is not permanent. It's fading and dying away, like a flower withering. But such internal beauty as to be sincerity, diligence and patience, is eternal virtue which is shown up even on their surface of appearance. She is not so sophisticated, but her internal beauty makes her much more graceful.

My job Today I went to work as usual. Each student has different personality, so I need to adjust myself to their character. Some students don't like studying, so I have to treat them severely and give a lot of homework assignment. Others who are strongly motivated, I don't have to treat them strictly because they do well by themselves unless to say anything, but I should give them a intellectually highly quality lesson. The most difficult ones to deal with are highschool girls. They like to be treated as a princess (it's just my opinion and not every girl is so). Anyway, I like to see someone who works hard for his own purpose and I feel happy when they get a high grade or pass an entrance exam successfully. I like my job.

Do you know the idea of "Qualia"? Qualia is simply stated as a feeling, which is like a feeling that I feel the sky is blue, I feel excited while watching my favorite movie, or I feel tired of my leg. Have you ever heard of the story of Mary's Room? This is a thought experiment which was proposed by Frank Cameron Jackson, Australian philosopher. Mary is a great scientist and she knows everything about a color (optical characteristics, a structure of eyeball, a connection of optic nerve, and etc). But she has never seen actual colors. Then what will happen to her when she first see colors? It must be certain that she will get some strong feeling, and this is Qualia.

There are so many vowels in English. We Japanese have only 5 vowels, so it is so hard for me (us?) to pronounce these English vowels correctly. Even telling the difference by hearing is difficult. What is the best way to get used to it? I think that the best way is living in another country for a long term where I must be surrounded by the English atmosphere, and it would force me to pay attention what is being said and to speak naturally. I, however, don't have enough time to live such a long term.