let it go We will feel unhappy just as we don't do the thing well. Or when we do something wrong, we are used to blaming ourselves. Actually, others just blame us one time or even they don't care abouot what we have done. But we blame ourselves more that one time. It seems that we always forget to forgive ourselves and forget to let it go.

Diary 2011-3-24 So Sad Yesterday my boss fired my friend. You couldn’t believe that there is this kind of boss in the world. She is unreasonable and never listens to any explanation. This thing makes my friend feel very sad. She couldn’t fall asleep until one o’clock at night. She cried because the boss’s words hurt her heart. The boss said that my friend was not suitable for doing foreign trade. How could she judge whether a person has an ability to do foreign trade just by one exam. And how could you let yourself accept the fact that what you have done before was just wasting time? Meanwhile for that work my friend’s hands and feet have been frozen. Every time strangers saw her walk slow and lame unfriendly, she had to endure that. Just because she likes doing foreign trade, she could bear so many hardships. However, the boss never sees what my friend has done. She just wants to make more and more money and doesn’t want to waste any time and any money. The reason why the world is so bland is that people are so bland. We just know to make money but we forget that love, families, friends, relatives are the most important for us. When we die, we couldn’t take away any money. Money is just floating cloud.

Diary 2011-3-20 So many things were happened I have not written my diary for more than ten days. During these days so many things were occurred. The first thing is that now I am working in the centre of the city rather than Minhou County. The second is that I and my college classmate, my colleague, some new friends rent a house in The East Water Crossing. The third thing is that every noon I buy some simple and cheap food in Newhuadu supermarket as my lunch. The food is a little expensive in that supermarket so that I don’t know what I have to ear. For my salary is not very high, I have to save up money. But the thing which makes me grow to maturity is that telling myself to be brave and confident in my heart when I get along with strangers. I find that I am not so shy as before. I should learn to live together with others which can make my life better and wonderful. Everyday is a gift and I should learn to smile to everyone in my real life.

Diary 2011-3-9 It is a so big unexpected thing This morning we had a meeting. Our boss told us that as requested, we would go to work outside. Because the old workers said that they didn’t want to work in so remote place. And some said that his boy friend was working in the centre of the city so it is inconvenient for them to meet. The problem for my roommate and me is that we have to find a place to live so that it will add our expenses to pay for housing price. The worst thing is that moving is so hard thing and we have to spend so many time to make a move. However, today making decisions was the most difficult thing for me which takes me so long time and I always hesitated for every choice will affect your every step in the future so I need to think about it again. Hope that everything will be better and better in my next life. I will go to believe.

Diary 2011-3-3 Yesterday was a busy day Yesterday was a busy day. I felt so tired. I have to modify my thesis and print my thesis in a short time so that I could hand it in. Meanwhile I have to attend a meeting so I was in a hurry. When I printed my thesis out, I found that I made some mistakes so I have to go to the shop to print it again. You couldn’t imagine how many times I have gone to the shop. When I finished my thesis I found that it was so late. In order to get to my company I decided to take a bus to ShaDun then transferred to a motorcycle. But when I was standing at the No.41 bus station to wait for No.41 bus I found that I was so dangerous for a girl to take a motorcycle which was driven by a stranger so I gave up going back to the company and made up my mind to go back tomorrow. It was so special day and I also felt that it was also a fulfilling day.

Diary 2011-2-28 Don't want to make myself regret Today my classmate came to our company. She decided to work here. Several days ago there were about ten people to come to our company for interview but result is that she is the only girl left. The reason is not that others don’t meet our boss’s demand. The fact is that our company is too remote so other people don’t want to stay here. They are like all other youth who want to work in the center of the city. They all hope that their lives are wonderful. I even don’t know why I choose to stay here. Maybe I am a little afraid that if I don’t give myself one chance to work on foreign trade I would regret in the future. So even if the present working environment is hard, I still can insist.

Diary 2011-2-26 To be myself Nothing is changed. I go on working in our company’s workshop. There is nothing special to happen but something has changed in my heart. Because I find that I am not so afraid to keep quiet in public. When they are talking, I just listen or laugh. In the past I will be afraid that if they know that I am here and if they will like me or if they will think that I am an uninteresting person. But today I always tell myself in my heart that I have to be myself and never imitate others. I should have confidence and believe that people who like me or who appreciate me will know that i are there even if i don’t speak any words in the crowd.

Diary 2011-2-25 Trying my best to adapt All the day I and my associates packed products in the workshop. Because our company was just removed to the new place last year, we don’t have sufficient workers to produce the products. Today several colleagues who have worked in office on the fifth floor came down to the fourth floor to help pack the products so that we can arrange delivery on time. We worked together and this phenomenon makes me realize that the boss will ask us to help do the same things at any moment so I have to try my best to adapt to the present work conditions as soon as possible if I want to continue staying here.

Diary 2011-2-24 Today I know so many surprising things. One of them is that our vice-chairman has worked in the company for about nine years witch makes me more worship her. For she works so hard and she always keeps work even if the boss is not in. then this afternoon my colleague with me went to learn on the fifth floor and we stayed there the whole afternoon. Our business chargeman told us something about our products. Form her I knew that we are selling four series products including 1101# (color flame calabash candle) 1102#(color flame spiral candle) 1103#(color flame straight candle) 1104#(color flame number candle) and we have three main packing ways such as display box, display board, simple packing. I think international trader is not a easy position so I have many things to learn. Let us make a little progress every day.