How about your idea about my new name? Recently, for a better communication, I changed my name from Elaine to Jessy. I'm not sure whether it is better or not to others, but I feel much better when making friends. So how do you think, my dear friends?

Hello to every friend here in 2012 How time flies! A new year is here again! I must say happy new year to everybody at first, may everything gets on perfectly well with all of you in this completely new year! It's been a long time since I left here, I don't know exactly what I was doing during this period that has passed, but I know I am keeping studying everyday,maybe learn something from books or movies. At the same time, I also have experienced a lot in this Chinese spring festival. I didn't come back home to accompany my gerontic parents and lovely nephew but just stayed in Shenzhen with my dear sister. We were running a CVS(convenience store) here, both of us are a little lazy and never cook for ourselves everyday, I have enjoyed wonderful sleep, but my stomach has really suffered a lot. In fact, I have returned back to my work now, but I still seems to be very puzzled, I cannot find my goal, I ever thought of changing a new job when this new year in coming, for I feel I am losing confidence in my present position, but I am not quite sure what kind of jobs I really want. The only thing I know and do at present is that I have to keep studying to improve my comprehensive ability, I ever had a teacher from America whom I met here by Italki, he taught me a lot and he is really a wonderful teacher, but I didn't cherish it at that time, for a lot of factors that I may be able to overcome, such as the cold weather and the phone calls after midnight. At this time, the weather is still not that good, but I really want someone to guide me now, I have no courage to contact my teacher, for I've been out of touch with him for really a long time. Also, I have ever made lots of excellent friends by this website, but as time gone by, I almost ignored all of them. Sometimes, I really think myself a failure in this world. I want success very much, but I seems to have lost my way . In this new year, I do not expect more other things, but I really hope that my listening ability and my English can be better or I just want to fully master it, for I live by it and represent my value by it. I am really a hardworking girl and willing to make all my efforts, but I just hope to fully present myself and get more supports or can be fully accepted and recognized by my leaders and colleagues. These will be impetus in my future road. To be honest, in this new year, I should make plan for myself, but it seems to be a little difficult for me now, for I still live in the dark.I hope I can find my way soon.

Birthday That Does Not Exist Today is November 1. Normally it should be her birthday, but something changed this time, for Oct. 30 disappeared from the calendar this year. Of course, I am referring to the traditional Chinese calendar here, we also call it the lunar calendar. She is just one of our colleagues who always stay with Jane and me. We laugh together and challenge together. We are all such kind of person with one dream in mind and never let things go away from us easily. She cannot accept this fact, so we are invited to have lunch outside with her today. My! Perfect lunch, I like it though so simple it is at the normal restaurant. We really enjoyed this lunch, since it hits the spot perfectly. It is quite hot and spicy which is quite suitable for our Hunan girls. I like it so much. At last, happy birthday, Kim.

Recent Random thoughts Today is Thanksgiving Day, a western festival. This should be a day for us to say "thanks" to others, but I seem to have a desire to say "sorry” to someone. This day, I feel a little puzzled, for lots of things happened on me recently. I am not so busy as I expected before Mr. Wu comes back from Canada, but I seem to have fully indulged myself in something that I shouldn’t do at all now. Maybe I should find a good excuse for myself, just as for I belong to Gemini or for I feel too boring and discontent with my current life, or even I eagerly want to change myself, since I sometimes really feel myself useless and incapable when compared with others or standing in fronts of many tricky things in life and work. Working only with the ability to speak English but not master it, I always feel very tired and helpless. Every time, I try to be strong though I know I am really unable to face them well. I keep improving myself silently only to find that I am just doing some useless works blindly and never know where to start and how to do. I ever chatted with one of my friends and said that I will be his good student, and try my best to meet his requirements, but he thinks that I am just a diligent and intelligent one, then nothing else I have. Maybe the key point on our study road to success is the sincere attitude, but there are also so many other things we should have at the same time which we cannot ignore. Do I really know myself well? This may be a question I should give answer right now. Just as my teacher told me that I shouldn’t just learn English from him , but more than that.English is merely a means to communicate, but if I do not have any INTERESTING things to say or express, then I will still come to be a useless one. I keep his words in mind deeply, since I know he may be the one that will change me and help me grow to be a more confident and effective person. That is just what I expected ever on myself. Hope that day will come soon with my excellent mentor’s guide on me and my own effort. Conclusion: How far you go, the key is to see who walk with you. Thank you, David. I’ve learned much from you. I’m glad to meet so many like-minded person via this website, I will try my best to keep the deep friendship among us and get more friends to learn from each other. I am sure the temporary failure is just the prelude of success and a test for us.

自己（じこ）紹介（しょうかい） 自己（じこ）紹介（しょうかい）いたします。 私（わたし）はじょふりです。私は中国人（ちゅうごくじん）です。よろしくお願（ねが）いします。申し訳ありませんが、私の日本語はよくないです。しかし、私の偉大な中国語と英語。願って、あなたは友人になる。日本のお客様から学ぶこと、そしてあなたが英語と中国語の練習ができます。 私が日本語で歌うのが好きな、私はほとんどが拍手曲の幸福である歌うでしょう。 希望と私達は友人になり、一緒に勉強します。ここで私は日本の歌を歌うものです。さらに、私は少し、"私のすべて"を聞いて本当に良い歌を歌う予定。 幸福拍手歌 日语版 幸せなら手をたたこう きむらりひと 作词 有田 怜 采谱/编曲 幸せなら手をたたこう 幸せなら手をたたこう 幸せなら态度で示そうよ ほらみんなで手をたたこう 幸せなら足ならそう 幸せなら足ならそう 幸せなら态度で示そうよ ほらみんなで足ならそう 幸せなら肩たたこう 幸せなら肩たたこう 幸せなら态度で示そうよ ほらみんなで肩たたこう 幸せならほっぺたたこう 幸せならほっぺたたこう 幸せなら态度で示そうよ ほらみんなでほっぺたたこう

First notebook entry: Introducing myself My name is Elaine, a confident girl from Hunan. Nice to meet everybody here.