Age Discrimination? I just heard that one of recruitment requirements of schools, universities and companies is that “age below 30”. God I thought it was 35. 35 is quite young in my opinion. Just imagine that if I would have a lot of difficulties to change my job, or apply for a new position, and then my life would have to be set like I would've been already an old woman, the feeling could be quite terrible. I want to apply for a PhD study, but according to this requirement, I probably can't find a job for a teacher after I graduate. Actually, I always feel the age discrimination as a female in China, but I didn't know that it is so “official”. It is insane.

Unconditional Love I don't think there is unconditional love. More precisely, there is no eternal unconditional love, but there does exist temporary unconditional love. The output and input isn't always exchanged immediately or equally. When they are not always equal, it might be labelled "unconditional love" by some believers. Interestingly, in return, the reason that those believers can bear this kind of inequality between contribution and acquisition is because they believe that the unconditional love exists. Some people might argue that people like to live in imagination but ignore the truth in reality. In my opinion, truth is not always the most important thing. Instead, it is more important that how people's believing/ illusions and the "truth" affect mutually. To some extent, these illusions are unnecessary. The faith in unconditional love does bring about some bad consequence. Some are asking the correspond to love them in return, because "I love you so unconditionally." They don't realise the conflict and then the one who is loved might become a victim of emotional blackmail. Some might become angry because of the unequal sacrifice, but they don't know how to express this anger because they believe unconditional love makes sense. Despite this, there is something not negative. My parents believe that they love me unconditionally. The proving way is not conceptual, but in every detail, like, the "sigh" and tears whey I am ill, the way they look at me, the breakfast they prepare for me, the tone they talk to me, etc. They do give me pressure, because I don't want to owe anyone else too much. However, I can't tell if I like it or not. Even though it is not absolutely unconditional, they give me an imagination that I am loved unconditionally. That is, they let me believe no matter how much failure I make or how bad I am, I can still be back home and be accepted, though this might be never proved. They give me an imagination that they will fight for me to death though they probably can't protect me. They give me an illusion of a "safe home" no matter how fragile it is actually. It seems that I can always be back home and act like a small animal, which doesn't think and lives away from the society, but can still get food and drink from the parents. They love me so much that it's not important to know whether it is conditional or not, and I don't care if it implies my weakness etc., I only know that no one could be tolerant of “me” so “unconditionally” if they died

What did she say in this video? mercy! I love the idea in this video. I'd like to know what exactly she said. URL:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEJjkDbJ_Rc at about 2:37 and 3:07. Thank you very much!merci. I typed it wrongly, sorryhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEJjkDbJ_Rc

A Beautiful Face: writing for a pedantic person Can physical existence tell if it itself is beautiful or ugly? Of course it can't! If all human beings were like vegetables without minds, would there be any difference of beauty or ugliness among humans' appearances? Of course no! In another word, there is no intrinsic beauty or ugliness inside any existence. All the aesthetic values are humans' mentality or morality. When a person claims that “she/he has a beautiful face”, the BASIC preposition is that “I think she/he...” or "I presume that according the social mainstream that...". I think this is a default consensus in most of the conversations in Chinese as far as I know. Need I make this statement EVERY SINGLE judgement when I speak English and only then can I show that my following words are just subjective rather than objective? Why do people create the standard of being “beautiful” and ”ugly“? Because people's physical appearances are way different! Basically, this standard is just a way to classify things! Though unfortunately, this way has been moralised, i.e., to be sorted as beautiful is always better than as ugly. What the basis is it on? Firstly, people tend to like what they are familiar with. e.g.it is hard to imagine that a model of beauty in ancient Japan could be a blue-eyes, sharp-nose, and gold-hair girl. In northern China, people might think flat faces are ugly; while in Southern China, people might think high cheekbones are horrible. Secondly, people more easily cherish what is rare (but not none), e.g. ancient Chinese people in some time tended to think white or light skin, big eyes were beautiful features of a girl. Thirdly, people tend to value what is useful, especially for the function of reproduction.e.g. a proper ratio of waist-hip is always imply a good ability of fertility, thus there were some universal values about beautiful appearances. From this, we can understand that why this aesthetic value has been changed dramatically and varied. Firstly, with the globalization, the close connection among the world, and the immigration, it is hard to differ which is rare or which is common, and it might stir up a racist problem. Secondly, people have begun to use "love” or other concepts to replace “reproduction”, some people even don't want children. (this is why physical issue is more important in China, because they don't value "love" as much as Westerners do while they still value "having children".) Thirdly, (word limit, put it in red in a correction box)

I AM NOT MALE When males and males together Clean violence will be generated Wisdom is decoration for words Just like plastic vines twining an iron birdcage Rationality be rooted in the disgust against flesh Souls be made as currency to exchange with devil Life can't be recycled For the assembly line work has been finished Maybe we just need A simple palm-strike

Trainspotting Is Educational？ I got insomnia and picked a movie by random to watch. I thought it was an anonymous one. Surprisingly, it was witty, cynical and kind of funny. The Irish accent particularly added to this effect. Somehow it reminded me of some other movies. Compared to Naked, the atmosphere in Trainspotting is not gloomy and the story isn't that serious; compared to Snatch, the structure isn't that well-packeged and neat; compared to Black Mirror, the idea isn't that sharp; compared to Pulp Fiction, the form of it is far less important as the content. Overall, it is like a silly mixed-up thing. the mocking against popular culture or some social things just got to the point but seemed to never bother going further. This cunning aspect is a little similar to Wen Jiang's Let the Bullet Fly, but Jiang's cynicism was always together with masculine idealism. Anyway, I just love this casual style! Then I searched it on dou ban (a major website about movies in Mainland China) to put it into my movie list. Not Until when I checked it in Chinese did I realise that it was exactly the famous "cai huo che" (the translatied title in Chinese; I'd heard of it ages ago). No wonder it was not bad. Meanwhile I scanned some reviews or criticism.In the top list, and shockingly most of the writers expressed an idea like this: no matter how rebellious, or trying to be artistic or cynical you were as a student (I guess Chinese adolescence won't be finished until they go out of the campus to work), you have to accept the trivial in daily life no matter how hard you want to deny, and you will finally learn the social standard of "success" and get rid of the immaturity in the past. From those interviews, I can see that many Chinese people are practical and generally hold a casual attitude towards life, I just can't understand why everything easy and fun can become educational in China. Admittedly, it is no wrong to think in this way after watching Trainspotting, Yet personally speaking, isn't this kind of life too cautious and too meaningful?

My Summer Time flied fast. Unconsciously I have passed nearly a whole month and the summer will end soon. I was too lazy and didn't do much reading. This made me to feel a bit nervous and worried about my new life, that is I will return to be a student after leaving campus for such a long time. However, there are some amazing changes happened. One is that I finally I have begun to find a new model of getting along with my parents, which was the only problem that I felt hopeless to solve. I understood a lot of social things more soberly in the last past days. Similarly, I suddenly realised that I used to be too idealistic towards my parents. I can now finally get rid of the negative power of the Chinese religion-like: filial piety. I feel much stronger. Another is that I can be not just carnivorous. I had never had any interest in vegetables. At most I just didn't mind having some when they were on table. Last week I had a fever for several days and one day during it when I ate some meat, unexpectedly, I felt my stomach hurting a lot and I felt like vomitting in the whole afternoon. This happened again the next day. I suddenly found it would help me recover if I just ate vegetables. I finally found that my dad cooks vegetables wonderfully, and he is not just good at cooking meat and fish. I began to miss the flavour of fried-vegetables he cooks. This feelingI had never emerged in the past. It is a good thing that I can quit the addiction of meat. It is more healthy for me. Thirdly but more trivially, I went swimming several times. My swimming skill was being improved in the last fours years. I didn't make special effort on it and never made expectation. At first when I taught myself swimming, I felt it was so hard and I didn't even think I can make it some day. Naturally things have changed. This change gives me a lot of confidence about “time”. I used to be impatient about results. I easily got disappointed if I couldn't see the success in a period I could presume. Now I think I can wait. I don't need to measure time just by day or month, but by years. Alike, my "friendship" is going more and more tight steadily. I think I am a lucky girl. Besides, because of swimming, my flesh becomes more compact. I have never had protuberant muscle before, but now I can see six bucks of abdominal muscle and the shape of my waist is nearly perfect. I want to find some ways to avoid it changing into fat when I am busy at university and don't have time to do exercises

That I Met You Besides A Church This is not magical luck, nor mysterious fate, just happiness in daily life. We once suffered similarly, then run away from a church separately. On this "special" land, there aren't many physical churches, yet the mental churches are everywhere. Luckily I met you and have you. This is not the first time that this wonderful feeling happens but this is the only time that these kindd of feelings can be so real and stable, so simple, relaxed, and peaceful, without any illusions or fantasy. neither expectations in advance nor worries accompanied with. No boys else who were liking me in front of whom could I still be myself and be encouraged to be more brave to be “I” instead of a fragile, delicate Chinese porcelain doll.

Fair: Majority or Minority This is a public class: http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/y4u_ovHcZLU/?resourceId=0_06_02_99 At first, the professor introduced utilitarian morality raised by Banthem, which is, the highest principle of morality, personally and politically, is to maximise the general welfare or the collective happiness, or the overall balance of pleasuer over pain. In the following discussions, some students argued that "this principle doesn't respect individual or minority rights", while Banthem‘s supporters refuted that the minority’s rights had already been considered, but "people have to make a decision". Another objection was that some students insisted that "it is not possible to aggregate all values to translate them into dollar terms." In my opinion, the essential factor of the difference between minority and majority is not the number, but the power. More precisely, so many people believe that it is more fair to give priority to the majority, just because they believe what they are living in now is not a hierarchical society, which is withe the emerging of the concept of equality. Since every individual's power is equal to each other, the number becomes a practical way to measure the power. On the opposite, in a hierarchical society, the enactment of legislation is just to maximise the benefits of the minority, because they control the biggest social power. From this perspective, there is no absolute fair. Fair is just the result of a game. No one deserves privilege naturally. The very reason that why the majority care about the minority's rights is not only because of the kindness, but becuase this distribution is not set. One good strategy of the weak minority to ask more support from the majority, is let them feel that they might become one of them. In the case showed in the class, which was about an investigation about smoking, citizens were so angry even though they could earn more money if the cigarettes were not controled strictly by the government, is not because this investigation was "heartless", but because the people who smoked were not set. That is to say, any of them could be the victim. Hence, the best goal to make policy principles is neither for the majority alone nor the minority, but to find a balance or compromise between them.