Dear Sr. S, Thank you for your detailed information, and I apologize for my late reply. This is X. I discussed it with T during the holiday. It's not because she doesn't want to write to you personally; actually, it's because her English is not very good. But it's okay! She can try to find something else in Asia. I travel during school holidays and have stayed in different monasteries, such as M, since spiritual life is important to me. The Sister asked me to tutor a boy in some basic English with his textbook. It was the first time that I heard the sound of a zither; I was profoundly moved by the voice of God. So I always pay attention to monasteries. I don't compare myself right now to that future self, so I feel satisfied because I cherish every day that God gives us. I appreciate how far I've come. I'm xx years old (now). I'm afraid of staying where I am because there is no permanent security in this world. The clock is ticking, and the only way to pursue something meaningful is by deepening our faith. "Personally" in this context means to write directly, by herself.