Just complain  complaining

I don't know how many times I envy my roomates in for staying in the dorm all day and playing computer games while I am struggling in with my studies. Will I be more successful after we graduating  graduate from the college? I don't think so, because of this unpredictable world. Each time, I ask myself, "how about being like them? it's more easy and comfortable, isn't it?" And each time, I get a completely NO. Each time, I ask myself, so, "why should I living live like this? Does it makes any sense?" And untill now, I don't know yet.it's When I think self sucks, my personality really sucks. ( When I think about myself, my personality really sucks. ) I
have to get up early for work. tomorrow, night.  ( What is tomorrow night? )