Can not be worse but is going to be better

The opposite of love is not hate. It's ... ...
Nothing good happens in the fall and or winter. It's the coldest time of the year, and the darkest time of my life. It's the very time for me to taste hope and disappointment, smiles and tears. So many obstacles are waiting for me in the future. But all I can do is protecting my dream and move on. Maybe I will fail thousands of times before I succeed, but I am not afraid of trying. I do know that life is full of rises and falls, everyone ought to be strong and brave.
At but first, I need a listener, they do not even need not to be a friend, just someone to listen to me. Sit still infront of me, silently. Listen to my stories, real feelings. It can be dangerous, because you never know what kind of person he/she is, whether he/she will capture your weakness and put you at an inferior position. But I'd rather choose to be frank and kind. Once I get hurt, it can be extremely hurt painful. I am taking the risk, but I'm not afraid. However, at last, everybody around is so busy that no one stops for a while and to listen to me. I don't know to whom I can turn to. The only one I can rely on is myself, even in a hopeless condition, what I can do is to push myself and step forward, without guidance, companionship or support ... ... A monster always comes into my dream and tries to steal my hopes and dreams, but I combat fight with it and protect my dream carefully. I can't live without them, my dreams and hopes, they are everything I live for.
I will meet a better version of myself someday, somewhere.
"If I should meet thee,
after long years,
how should I greet thee?
With silence and tears."
Good late night.