Attendance is easier,while participation is more difficult! When I was a child,I started learning English.But at that time,my goal is to have a good score in my final,Actually I just learned dumb English.I could speak to others or to say, feel nervous to use English. But now,I have to talk to some foreign professors ,discuss some problems with them,listen to some research seminar,All these require my English good.Besides,I want to have a little international perspective and have my position in a multinational company in the future,So learning and practising are essential to me. To achieve my goal,I attend one training center,I have a lot of classes each week,I squeeze my time to avoid missing one class.But at class,I just get used to listening and taking notes.I did not participate it.Sometimes when I feel really happy,I could say some short sentence or some words.Most time,I don't want to say,and feel scared to speak.So I just made a small process.The biggest problem is i couldn't hear that clearly. Today,I feel a little frustrated,i attend a small party,called Friday Talk,some international students learn calligraphy with me,but i didn't talk too much,i feel I didn't attact them,or to say I'm boring.But one freshman ,good at calligraphy,make some friends as expected.Even i didn't praise others ,I 'm too lazy.How come?The reason is my character?I am too introverted?how can I change myself? I spend a lot of my time attending,but i feel i never enjoy it! What i should do is to think deeply and find the answer,but never give up. Remember your original intention!