I've said no

Maybe it was a stupid thing to do but I don't care what you may think. I said no and I feel better than yesterday when I still carried the burden over on my shoulders. The funny thing is that I already have my beautiful glossy visit business(?) cards that said "Director". I think I'll use them to caculate how many more tears I'll have to shed before I can forget or ... No, I really don't want to forget. Why should I forget? Beautiful things should last forever. I can use them to cover an ugly pillar pillow(?) I have in my sitting room. I'll keep you informed. Do not worry. But what is sure certain is now I'll have less money, less professional projection image(?) but more time, loads of hours to give to whom whoever wants to share them with me, and my summers... to keep on walking by the sea. And if it rains, I'll walk under his huge umbrella.

A couple of corrections in red and some suggestions in blue/gray. The suggestions with question marks are where I wasn't exactly sure what you were intending to say.