翻译/ Long translation How do I say this in Mandarin? All was still at first. My head leaning against the railing, I was shrouded in the gloom of the ever-grey clouds drooping above me. Every day felt so similar it started to feel as though they had all melded into a single, dull tapestry. I was used to feeling like this. Living like this. At some point it seemed I had become so accustomed to my sadness that I couldn't remember what I was before it.