Dear dad,
How are you? I haven't forgotten you for a second, you were someone so precious to me. When I was having a hard time with your absence, someone said to me, "You will be okay after a few month or a few years.". But you were not someone I would be fine even if some time goes by, it's not even enough to hold you deep in my heart all my life. You, so precious... It is too late that I realize your big and warm love. The precious moments with you, the golden moments. Looking back on it now, the ordinary days I spent with you were so happy. Happier moments than them will not come in the rest of my life. Come to think of it, I'm just happy with memories about you. To be honest, I don't want to believe it. Although I visit you once every week, I can't believe it even over there. It seems that I could meet you smiling. This place where you left us is like hell. Even if we smile, even if talk loudly, even if we eat deliciously, even if we seem happy... we will never be able to fill the huge hole in our heart with anything. It is too late that I realize your massive and warm love. I realize it after you passed away. I haven't said to you a word of "I love you" even though you said we were the most beautiful in the world. You gave us warm love, you're gone after you gave warm love to us. But I said so many hurtful things to you. I can meet you if I get aged and go to heaven, right? I hope time passes fast... I love you, dad.