I Want a Camel as a Pet, Badly :/ I saw such a great documentary about camels tonight, I didn’t know they are such a great guys! They make very nice parents! They care too much about their children! They are very faithful and emotional! In that documentary it showed that one of them just lost her son, and each year she came in a place where her son has died, she stayed there for a while, and tears poured down from her eyes. It was wonderful but sad scene, to see her alone there while she was suffering from her loss and the fact that she couldn’t convey her feelings to anyone else, made the scene even sadder, I wished I could have been there to stoke her, and talk with her, and help her out! I didn’t know they can feel this much deeply, cry and also memorize feelings for a long time. It also showed, in very rare situations, you can see a camel after giving birth to her child, (if she had suffered a lot while giving birth), she would get depressed and she would kind of miff with her child! Then the shepherd man, who take care of camels, starts to play musical instruments for her, and stoking her, and walking with her for some period of times to calm her down. such a nice scene it was when that man was going along with her! After disappearing depression when she went back to her child, and the child got closed to her she poured some tears! I actually didn’t like camels but now I love them, I totally changed my mind and I am thinking if a camel can makes a pet?

Doubt and Pattern Recognition :O It has been nice day, the weather was nice, so I was in nice mood! Nothing is absolute in this world, you have always doubt about evry thing! You never can live a definite life, you should go through probabilities. We have a lesson in university it is called pattern recognition. The main idea is that they gave you plenty of data and patterns and you should find the best way to classify them. We are learning load of complex math’s methods to distinguish data from each other and classify them. You will learn there that none of classifiers even those which involve complex math to be identified are absolute, it means you never can decide for sure which pattern is for which classes! Just you can raise the probabilities! Just like what we do in our daily life! There is another nice thing in that lesson, when we have something unknown for example a complex undefined and unknown function, we define some virtual concepts there, and we attribute some define features to it! For example we assume that this virtual concept is near to that real unknown function, and something like that, and the amazing thing is that we could reach with high probability to a real function using that virtual function: O, I have been thinking about our life, and I figured we are using this method in our daily life a lot, our definition of every things like love, god, humanity,etc. are like that! We define virtual concepts about each of them, everyone has its own virtual concept, and then we attribute features to them, and then accept and live with them as our beliefs. Based on our knowledge, experience, and culture we define different things and different virtual concepts and base on accuracy rate of them we get reality with some possibilities!

Dear all Stop Bullshiting if You Are Doing It Right Now :P There are moments in your life that you wish time stops for a while, Sometimes, time goes faster than you, and you just want to shout at it, and say that” hey time, damn you! stop for a while, I want to live my life “! You want it to stop, but it never does. So you ask yourself:” if it is my own life why can’t I walk a little bit slower? “, then you find yourself surrounded by scheduled obligations like job, university stuff, etc. Obligations are sometime good though, they compel you to get moving! There are also moments when you have to teach and convince yourself, that there are people out there who simply lie, and things get worse when you have to convince yourself that the number of them is not few! You should teach yourself that there are people who abuse your sincerity and also there are people who even feel pride for being talented to bullshit others. Those are people who make the earth empty of sincere people! I believe mankind knows perfectly about humanity and morality when he is a child and as he grows up, world just keeps telling him:,” forget about them all and just think about survival”. And this is time when you see people saying things like: “we are all alone”,“ I don’t believe in love”, “ life goal is just survival” , “ I am not interested in friendship” , “ love is lie” ,etc!

I won't complain tonight :P I am up to my ears in work; I guess I have to be up till morning to do my homework! :( I am in my rest time; I put 30 mins for resting! Being awake because of your homework is way too better than being awake by your damn thoughts! One of our celebrities once told," make yourself too much busy till you cannot find any time to think about bad events and bad feelings in your life!" These days I am thinking he talked sense. So I won’t complain being busy tonight :D

Simple Steps! Life is an odd thing, it is so complex, but people handle it very well by doing small and simple things! They put rules for everything, even for having better relationship they give you some guidance rules! Everything is teachable, even painting, playing football, loving, caring, isn’t it odd? For you maybe not, but for me it is somehow shocking really. It just confuses me a lot! You should just learn simple rules and then start! How much odd! :OOO! I have always thought since things are complicated, they require complicated acts to be done. Buying a red rose for someone is simple but the effect which it would make is so complicated! :O It just surprises me to see how simple things can greatly affect very complex things! I suppose if I eventually could convince myself to accept this fact that all I have to do is taking some small and simple steps, I would eventually get moving! If you ask me what the hardest thing in the world is? I would tell you, teaching yourself is the hardest job in the world. Actually compelling yourself to do things is really hard. I have lots of things to do but I wasted all my day today, I couldn’t compel myself to sit and start doing them. They say I could have not wasted my day today, if I had set some goals for myself, and put some deadlines to do them! Odd, but they say it would work. I hope I can eventually persuade myself to believe that I can manage things by taking some simple steps! I am trying to teach myself step by step!

Sun Still Shines :))) Well, I am here to write some of my words down, in English, to learn it! I love when I breathe as an alive person, and also I love when I walk! I think I am lucky coz have a brain to learn new things. I am learning how to live my life, and it is just great, like when you drink a cup of hot coffee in café! Some people’s life stories are more delicious than others and I still wonder why! I once read Abler Camoes’ book named “the stranger”, and I think I didn’t like it because I didn’t want to think that my life could be something like the life of that stranger in the book! I still have faith on people, and I would rather think that Anton Chekhov was way too pessimist when he wrote about Iona, the main character of his short story “Misery”! I still believe after all dark nights there is a sun which would eventually shine :))