Are we blind? Something is happening around me. It seems like there is Somebody who controls everything, who has His own plan and does not even think of sharing it with me. But everything is changes as fast as fall has changed into winter, and rain into snow. And I don't want to waste my life nor time. I do want to live, to be usefull for people around me. And there is no one. I stood up, came to the window and noticed that there is nothing but the cold snow and wind. Where are you? Why had you dissapeared? I am tired of loneliness or solitude. I want to turn around and see your happy faces, but there is no one to smile. The old poster on my wall, cold furniture and a mirror. Breathe. Ten, nine, eight.. they say it helps, but it doesn't