try to control myself Yesterday, I lost my temper again because a very very tiny thing. After quarrel with Chen, I felt very bad and sorry. I should not became so angry, anyway it was just a tiny mistake. I think I should be more patience and tolerant. I apologized to him later and promised I will control myself and think more before I lose my temper next time. When I was young, my mother always yelled at me when I done somthing wrong. I had thought my mother did not love me, maybe she only love herself. It is so hard to get praise from my mother. I tried to behave well and do what my mother think is good, just wanted to get some praise from my mother. But it was hard. I don't want to act like my mother. I hope I would be a nice mother to my child in future. Maybe it is a good idea, when I fell angry, I will take a deep breath, and count from 1 to 3, then maybe I will calm down, and think in a different way. I don't want to be a person always hurt the one whom she love very much.

some bad thing, some good thing Last month, we moved to the new office. Though there are many green plants in the office, it is still smelly. Some of my colleague bought the gas mask, some colleague who plans to have a baby, asked for leave or applied for work in other location. Considering the testing condition, part of the mechnical test lab is still in the old building, about two station road away from the new office. It will cost a half hour to walk from the new office to the old building. Considering the inconvenience, we bought three bicyces for whom need to do test in the old lab. I like riding bicycle especially when the weather is nice, I also like walking, so the lab and office is not in the same location maybe it is good change to me, I can be forced to do some walking, but it also waste time especially when the leadtime is urgent. Last weekend I went to the library and borrowed some books. One of the book is written by Hong Ying, but I found I do not like this novel.

training in shanghai again Now I am in Wenzhou for bussiness trip to do test in playground factory. My spoken English is still poor. I had some trouble when talk to the Beligum Client and my German colleague. I think there maybe two factors, one is because my awful oral english , the other is that I don't have topic to talk with them. Sad……. Tommorrow I will travel to Shanghai together with my colleague to attend a technical training. I will learn hard. Fighting.

Become a housesalve During national day, we went to Hubei, Mr. Chen's home town, and signed the contract to buy an apartment. Since we didn't have enough money to pay in full, we have to mortgage to the bank. We also signed a loan contract with ICBC and will pay off the mortgage about 15 years. I don't know why we Chinese people have to endure so high price of house and live a so hard life. It is pity.

book to read? Could somebody recommend a novel for me? Many thanks. I want to read something interesting.

watership down Recently I read a book named 'watership down'. A group of rabbits left their old warren to avoid risk. It was a hard and dangerous journey. When finally they dig and built a new warren and settled there, they found they needed enough does to propagate the species. So they tried hard to find more does and bring them to the warren. Then the rabbits find another warren with many does through the help of a bird . Finally they succeeded in bring some does back to their warren through some trick. But unluckily fight with another warren started because of the trick. After reading the book, I think we need more wisdom in the life. I also think human are very cruel not only to animal, but also cruel to human. But we have no place to hide, anyway the world obeys jungle rule. Today I also learn a new Latin saying: While I breath, I hope.

Business trip in Shanghai Maybe I will saty in Shanghai about tow months and work in Shanghai office. My job becomes more challenged than before. I have to control the whole project and also need to communicate with the customer as a key account manager. It is a big challenge for me and the work environment around me is not such friendly and seems a little embarrassed. So I have to work hard to face the challenge. I don't like to be pushed or have to push others to do something. It feels bad. But sometimes you have to do so, otherwise, maybe you will mess up on your job. Wish me a good luck. Anyway, please cheer yourself up. I must trust myself and never give up.

Business trip in Shanghai Maybe I will saty in Shanghai about tow months and work in Shanghai office. My job becomes more challenged than before. I have to control the whole project and also need to communicate with the customer as a key account manager. It is a big challenge for me and the work environment around me is not such friendly and seems a little embarrassed. So I have to work hard to face the challenge. I don't like to be pushed or have to push others to do something. It feels bad. But sometimes you have to do so, otherwise, maybe you will mess up on your job. Wish me a good luck. Anyway, please cheer yourself up. I must trust myself and never give up.

Hope everything is well My father has left us for five years. Today is his death anniversary. I miss him very much. He worked hard and lived a simply and frugal life to support our family. He love us and taught us to be kind and honest. He is a nice father. My brother went home last Sunday. But becasuse Ningbo is far away from my hometown, it is pity I can't go home today.