The feeling that I miss so much
When I was in my University, I had a close friend, he is a guy. When we were in 2nd year, we studied the same subject together, which was Economics 101. Even though he was my senior, but he passed the subject with flying colour. Therefore, he was willing to help me.
We were not from the same class, or even same year. There was one day, I was sitting at a table, in my school library. He approached me, told me that he was a senior of that subject, he could help me if I wanted to. My major is International Relation, so I had no previous knowledge in Economics subject, therefore I accepted his offer.
He helped me, we studied together, for 3 months. We had many wonderful time. We laughed together, we always had meals together, we studied together, we talked about our life together. That time was his final year. He said that, he liked me, he asked me if I can be his girlfriend. That time, I told him that, I was not looking for a romantic relationship.
He graduated that year, and I didn't see him after his graduation day.
This year is my final year, I am still studying in library, preparing for my upcoming exam. The reason why I picked this place to study, was because, somehow, maybe deep inside my heart, I wish that I could get the same feeling again. The same feeling that I had, when we studied together.
There were some guys approached me, offered me the chance of studying together. They were nice guys, there were interesting guys, some of them were even smart guys. However, they were not the one I am looking for. Nobody can give me the feeling that he once gave me.
I miss the place, the place that where we met each other. However, I couldn't get another guy like him anymore, I couldn't get the same feeling from another guys anymore.
I miss him, I miss the feeling, but I don't regret about my decision. Still, I am studying in library, looking for someone.... someone... who can give me something.... maybe.... the one I am actually looking for.... it's him....
from [the story of parallel universe traveller] - a self-published book by ghost writer Stella Wong
