I felt the joy and depression at the same time I found out a very scary thing yesterday. I can speak some english words but unfortunately I have forgotten how to spell it correctly! When I am in the english class with a local dentist who has retired and would like to contribute himself in teaching chinese students english, I found that he also forgot the spelling of the words. What confuses me the most is that actually I could remember words by pronoucing it correctly, in the past I mean. Now I failed to spell it correctly, does it mean that I am actually losing the ability to pronounce it in the right way? Paniiiiiiiiiiic!!!!!!! I was quite happy yesterday because I met the guys who I met about 3 months ago in an accidental worshiptalk! I am not a christian, but I told him that I was inspired by the thoughts and the talks from a little church in China. After that worship, I couldn't forget the touching that is left in my heart. That inspiring talk is about efficiency in our daily life, the brilliant part is that they relate that with the bible, diggin g deeper in the meaning of the book and our spirit. I told the guys I had kept looking for these kind of worship in Britain. They had a really interesting program called "what are you looking at". They seemed to trust my friend and me and hoped that I could go to attend their talk on that Sunday, but for some reason, I didn't go and would worry their true intention at first. It is a really small world in Newcastle, whereever you go, you can meet friends or you would surprsingly find out that your friend's friend is actually your roommate``` They look happier and more energetic, appearing fresh and pleasant look, which is really a good thing. The talk last evening said that time is limited and you would never know what you would come across at the next minute. One sentence that impressed me a lot was that don't hesitate to give your kindness to people around you. I thought of the roommate in my house, I don't know how to get along well with them. After I talked to one of the roommate about the noise issue and he didn't respond well, I was quite disappointed. I was in a groomy mood and thought that I was not respected and cared. I am being silent, no more talking, spending as much time as possible outside, always putting my headphone on when home. I hate headphone and being silent. What can I say, I couldn't expect a British guy to care his roommate. He might properly think that I am being rediculous. I don't know how to show my kindness. Aint it sad~