February 6, 2022
Yesterday was quite strange. When I come back home from a walk, I had a headache. I couldn't complete my work of correcting a script. After meditation, I went to bed. When I was just about to fall asleep, I got agitated suddenly. At that time, I was listening to a podcast on YouTube. I felt so bad for myself. I thought, 'I've been learning English for a long time, why can't I speak fluently? I watch English news every day, why can I still not understand all of them?' I just wanted to smash my phone; I punched the air so many times. I realized that there was something wrong. I listened to the Green Tara Mantra. Then I felt a bit better. Maybe ten minutes later, I fell asleep.