4.24 Buying Clothes I haven’t written on italki for a while, a long while, because ever since the new semester started, my schedule was getting busier and busier. I have five different courses to teach and almost all of them are alien to me, so I need to plan the lessons day after day, night after night. My weekends are also taken, usually with two full days’ work. The pay is good(the major console); otherwise I would not be willing to make such a sacrifice. Sometimes I would wonder whether it is worth it, when I find I have been spread too thin to meet all the different needs. Still I haven’t got the answer yet, but I try to be positive, especially now there are three paydays every month waiting in line. I know money can’t buy all, but it is a great feeling that when I shop online, I could just put the items I prefer directly to the shopping cart and don’t even have to blink. The desire for possession is like a sort of addiction. You just can’t get enough of it. I love to buy things; they give me a sense of satisfaction and security, and good lessons too. An illustration of this is, I have wasted quite a lot of money buying clothes that barely fit me both in size or style. They were mostly bought out of a sudden impulse, when they were shot so nicely on models, and when I overestimated my resemblance to skinny girls. Yes, it was a total waste, and I used to regret that to no end. But again, now I try to look at the bright side of it: it is only after buying so many good-for-nothing outfits that I finally realize what I really want and what I truly need. So when I shop for clothes these days, I buy wisely and become more particular than ever. I would not consider good bargains as I used to, or strange designs. I would go straightly for something that offers comfort, quality material, and patterns that reflect better on my style, my personalities and my age. Just like in a relationship, to someone, it is only after so many setbacks that he or she could finally understand what is their hearts' desire, what is best fitted. The process could be painful, but in the meanwhile, helpful too.