I often resist going to sleep in the night because I never want the next day to come because I have to go to work. In bed, when I can't fall asleep, worries or my past/current screwed experience fills my thoughts and keeps me awake.Unlike the when I was a student, there is no enrollment/graduation ceremony. The life keeps going just plain ordinary without exciting events and the same old stuff. I'm feeling as if I'm not living my life. Okay and this leads to unanswerable questions: what's the purpose of life blah blah blah. I'm not sure if my decision was right yet. A few weeks ago, I told my boss that I want to quit my job. This work gave me stable income and good status in society. However, the freedom of using my own time had gone. Facing the fact I'm going to turn 30 years old in this year, I felt I don't want to keep repeating this for next 30 years and wanted a small vacation for myself and to question how I wanna spend next 30 years. Well, I could change my thoughts and make the work more fun. I'm maybe just not interested in it enough to do so. Although my last day of this job hasn't been decided yet (I was told there is a possibility it would be end of June or even Sep!), I'm excited to starting my new life from now! Preparation could be the most fun part of all things. I am looking forward to being busy for new challenges and growing myself. :D