today is my last day in life i will kill myself for you honey my last words i'm doing this because i cannot face the people around me anymore because i cannot smile anymore because my life will never

how can an angel break my heart

today is my last day in life i will kill myself for you honey my last words i'm doing this because i cannot face the people around me anymore because i cannot smile anymore because my life will never be funny as before and to be away from you will never make me forget you i know myself you judge me to stay away from you now i will stay away from everyone in my life i cannot see in the face of my family i cannot laugh again with my friends i know that they will miss me especial people who did love me for real not like you baby i was like a game in you hands from left to right and up and down what's makes me sad like that that you didn't give me just the wright to say what i have in my heart you cannot forget someone like that in one step i want just to blame you to say what i have in my heart to feel better and to forget i can forget yes i can do it but why should i forget you and you love me too i don't understand i was too happy because after a month i will complete 19 and you are with me but sadly iam not going to complete it and you're not going to be with me everytime i think that you will love an other one that's drive me crazy every touch that you should give it to me it will be to her every word should i hear it will be for her every thing should i have it in my life will be for her just to her it's not fear after all i know that it's done and what it's done it's done if you could be for an other one i cannot be for an other one that's why i'm choosing to die to fast with killing myself and to don't kill it slowly with my darkness ideas what i have to say that you hurted until the death i just want to talk because i needed someone close to me to have a conversition with him but you didn't let me i wish that ALLAH will make you see just the half of what i saw crying over you morning and night what a horrible life i know it's not the end of life it's just an expiriance but i want you honey to learn from that expiriance you make an innecent girl and drive her to kill herself because of your love this is for you : you hurt my heart and i could'nt tell you why because my peans is nothing even if you couldn't feel it there's no solution my heart is not mine he's mine but if without you my days in hell i loved you but i didn't care that maybe one day you will leave i learnd how to miss you to love you but i forgot how to forget you even that you are far from me my soul is with you you know that i need you but there's no mercy in your feelings i loved you it's my wickness i know it but i still love you every time i want to forget you i forget but i back to remember you my love i'm done your happyness in my hurtness and my happyness is to back to you for once why do you make it hard ? just one more time i'm saying that i will kill myself just for you to make you leave in peace and my familly in aweful moments who will love you as much as i do and die hurted like that but because my soul will be with you after my death i don't care i will never forget you one day i hope that my GOD will understand why do i will kill myself and everybody of you i'm sorry if i hurted someone please forgive me for my stupid solution i wanted to have a lot of friends i hope that everybody loves me and pray for me to live in peace betwen the hands of my GOD i love you that's why i did that i know that you're not going to read it because you delete yourself from italki but i hope one day one of your friends will tell you that i did that just for you i'm sorry for blaming you but you are the one who takes my life first i have just a body i don't need it anymore bye everyone i love you so much i wouldn't kill myself but it's the only solution that can make me far from to be hurted and to be with him there good bye my lover next morning no one will see me again i swear i swear with every part of my body with every tears fall in the floor with every words come from my month all that because friends before that i go forever everyone need to know that friends not friends they are evils they judge your life to be in the darkness don't trust i published my story just to make everyone pay attention to people around him to every step that you take to every move to anything i'm now alive after a little hours i will be in the sky living an other life humains are not angels that's why they do mistakes you need to beware from your actions before that it will be over watch out from your devil and learn from my story but please don't judge my lover he did that to me he don't want to hurt me anymore by his actions especial that we aren't from the same country all of our problems was to have a tickets he needs to have a ticket to come to see me he said i will come in months 10 but sadly i'm not goig to be here tell him that i'm not going to be here that our dreams to stay together goes with days and by friends i will never forgive you even if i'm dieing i will never forget that you didn't make me see my only dream that you was the one who distrube my life but my GOD will judge more than i do i love you that's why i can't to judge you with the right way good bye my lover you will see always my ghost in your dreams good bye my friends the real friends and the players friends the bad and the god person good bye for all even if i'm dieing i want you to write in this profile again and again and again my soul will live in peace with ur answers thank you for everyone tries to be with me and to help me to push the past behand me but what i have in my mind no one can take it from me i will kill myself hoping that my GOD will forgive me one day hoping that my lover will be happy much happier to see that he want the best for me and me too i want the best for him by that solution before thata i go i opened my page just to see if there's someone who tried to understand my words thank you people this is my number for people who asked me before 00212672408890 i know that it will not work after a little hours i'll be there bye

Mar 19, 2009 12:37 PM

Answers · 13

i hope you are not serious. think it over. if all youngs that didn't get the love of the one they wanted had killed themselves, sure there would be no people on earth. i'll be really sad if a lovely maroccan young woman would disappear. i love you, (not in that way stated above, of course), and i would not like you to leave this fucking world without giving youself a chance to see if there are any other option left.

March 19, 2009

I have seen here that all the love from the people around the world has the power to change the pain and grief, prove yourself that you are more than words and continue living with or without him, beacuse as we all here know one day he will also leave this world and you also will have to understand the ways things go in life, detach from every sort of sorrow and open your eyes and I assure you the answers will come to you, just hear all these people prayers, we also want to see that beautiful person someone turned the back on. For the good memories, for the love of those around you, and if you really love this person, show him that you can continue living even without him, if you two are really one soul, then everytime you look inside he is going to be there, dont be afraid he isnt gone he (as all of us I hope) is going to be always inside of your heart just close your eyes and pay close attention and you will see that all the answers are within the silence of God. Hugs and kisses from Colombia, Im sure you will make the right chooise, just face it with all you got, we are here to help you too. Richelus

March 20, 2009

I pray not only that you won't hurt yourself, but that you will determine to choose life with all your heart. It might be hard for you to believe right now, but if you choose to live and do not attempt to physically hurt yourself, you will find happiness again. Yongbao above said it well. Don't let the happiness of the past become the pain of the present. Close off the past for now. Spend time with friends, read a funny book, or watch a movie. Distract yourself from the stream of thinking. Just give your mind some rest for a few days. Then, after a few days, if you find you are still sad, and then you can allow yourself to grieve maybe a week or less, always knowing that things will get better. In time, you will remember the good of the past without letting in the pain. Please stop hurting yourself with those thoughts. Instead, distract from those thoughts by spending time doing things you normally would enjoy doing. Take Care.

March 19, 2009

i know that this is a sad moment and you feel EMPTY and you think that you won't smile anymore and you don't love anymore...there are dark and dreadful moments in the life of everyone but you have to fight for your happiness, life can be so beautiful in many little things,you only have to try to discover it!probably you think that nobody can understand you but it's not true.why do you think people answered to you last day?...pity?...no,i don't think! it's because we all have felt the same ,maybe not exactly the same situation but ,you know, pain for love is the same for everybody i think. so what i want to say is... WAIT! don't do it...try to vent your anger on HIM,not on YOU!!think about your family,your friends ,they all love you,i'm sure!we can talk about it and find a solution,maybe you can't see it now but i know that there is. it's just a matter of time! fede fede

March 19, 2009

Really is not fair that someone's life is wasted for a person who didnt even want to fight for the pure heart of a person whose feelings and thoughts were always sincere and clear. Death is not a way to get away from problems but a way to make things easier in a moment of grief, those feelings you developed are within yourself, so no one can take them away from you and if you died you sure will make him suffer, a lot, even if he didnt accept it he will suffer if you kill yourself, so is it worthy to make the one you love suffer from that unberable pain? do you really love him? or do you just like the way you feel with him? if you die that will prove that you might not love him so much, but just liked the things he make you feel; all this people here coming from all the corners around the world are getting togheter in a prayer so you give life a chance, an opportunity to show you that there is more inside of you to give, and as there is darkness within humankind, there is also happiness and joy.Think it over, dont be a coward running away,stay strong and focus on healing, because im sure that if your lover is really in love with you, he soon will come to realize the person he is giving away for something so little.

March 20, 2009

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