please everybody spare me few moment of your time and read this ( it's part 2 of the first story) as i said before i love a guy and he loves me too once we were talking preciesly in this week and here started our problem that i did close my yahoo and he started to talk to me as an insane he didn't realize that i'm not there the last day he said to me that i'm not a good girl in a message i didn't understand i was too happy because i will talk to him in the evening but he sent me a message telling that i'm not good but why ? in the evening i meeted my friend she told me that she talk to him and he was angry and he used a bad language with her she said to me " what's going on?" i said i don't know i sent him a message i said please just tell me the reason of all that and connect yourself when he connected he said to me that i know the reason but i denied he said that i was talking to an other one and let him like an insane talking to no one i did explain for him that i had a problem in my connexion and when i fix it my father comes so i couldn't talk to him he apologize from me he said sorry a lot of times and because of my deep love i accept it and we started to talk i was too happy because of his jealousy but sadly everything goes today i came and i found him i was much happier when we started to talk i said to him that i feel bad he asked for the reason i said because of him that my friend don't want to talk to me again ( i was just joking) and that she make me choose betwen her and him when he heard that he became like a foo and telling me that i should choose my friend after all what he did to me he was jealous i understand him i tried to tell him that i can't to give up and to forget him and that i will never forget that my friend was the reason of our separatehe said no it's not her but i don't want to hurt you anymore i want you to live in peace and to see your life and that he is a bad boy but i said i want you and that's enough he refused to back to me after all i said to him do you love an other ? he said no i swear i said so you don't love me anymore , he said no i love you and i will never love someone as you i said so what ? he said we're not meant for each other i was in the cyber then not in my house i started to cry in front of people i couldn't stop i did want to stop but i couldn't it's not because i'm not strong and i cannot forget him no absolutly not but because i felt that i'm a stupid girl that i don't know the reason and the why i love him and he loves me but what's going on he didn't answer i went to call him but he closed his mobile i cried in the street and people were looking at me as if they are asking me why do i cry ? and i saw in the look of some of them that they know that it's because of my sick love i couldn't go to my home i asked my self how can i see in the eyes of my mother without telling her that her daughter need help and that she's hurted i was going from street to an other as if i'm searching him to hog and tell him that i can't to be away from him ( sorry if i'm crying now but when i remember what's happened to me i feel hurted) i want just to tell how i feel and to keep out of his life i know that he want to break up for me this is the best solution for to live in peace but he didn't realize that i can't live without how can you live with much heart aches and much pains and you don't know the reason is it the best for me as he said ? no no no and no it's not i will live in the hell by that solution i didn't know where is the way to home do i will back to my home or to go to an other place a place no one will know me no one will care to me because i can't to face people around me by that much pain epecial from someone i love him and i respect him and that i will never forget him i know myself i know that i'm a person that don't give up and keep going and when i want something i get it i started to feel that all that because of my friend when i will see her face i will remember his words his sile his face his joks his dreams our future life everything soudanly i found myself in front of my house do i will knock or not ? my hands couldn't move i felt my tears will fall on my face finaly i said it's the only place when i could feel much better my mom opened the door she noticed that i was sad when she asked me what's goig on i don't know what's happened to me i started to cry betwen her hands and i fall in the floor she asked for the reason i didn't know what to tell her i can't to tell her about him i can't and i know my mother she will know she will know i told her without paying attentgion to what i'm saying that one of my best friend had died with a horrible way she took me betwen her hands and said all of us will go back to ALLAH we are his creatures in the end i found that my best friend that died was me was my feeling was everyplace in my innecent body i noticed that there's no difrents betwen love and hate it's the same i just wanna have a chance to go on and move with my life i wanna say to you my lover that i can't again get you out of my mind i can lie because a guy like you hard to find i hope that you realize what you did to me you have lost me with your selfishness if i hurted you what you would to me ? you want to kill while i was hurt in all our time together you saw just the pure part of me if i were to die it would be much better than to live hurted by you baby maybe one day i will forget you but i swear with every tears that comes from my heart that i won't forgive you and my friend if it was my fault tell me what was my fault ? how would i ever go on and if i won't kiss ur lips again without you there's no place to belong well someday the love will drive you to back to me i hope that you will back one day because me i'm out of life from the moment that you said to me it's over i'm not going to have my smile in my face i won't bethe funny girl the craziest girl i will always remember what you did to me it's hard to forget and to forgive you think that i'm strong enough to forget it's hard toi be strong when you are hurted you break my heart i know that you are inside you thinking about me there is a place in your body deny to say good bye to me after one year i wanted to tell you that betwen to complete the year of love there is just a month i remember the day the first day with every details i love you even that please everyone give what do you think about this story about a story that won't finish like that you need to notice that we aren't just 2 souls anymore we are one soul in one body i hope that you will understand me and to realize that you are lucky to have a lover like me that she loves you for real bye