How beautiful it'd been. I would have not lost you. I would have not lost us. I would have not come back home that day in which we was over. You know neither of us that day wanted accepted what was happening. How long did we stay together hugging each other ? Anyway i'm happy without you. I can live without you. I don't need you. I think since we've broken I grow up more mature without your help but you know, i think you had influenced about me, drawing a little piece of my path. I'm sure about it. You are not important for this reason, because all the people who i meet every day they influence me a little bit. It's a good thing. It's like a lovely puzzle. I'm a puzzle made by lovely piece. One by one they are gonna drawing out my personality, my ideals, myself. So, the only thing which makes me upset is that since that day I haven't still found someone with whom speak about everything, with whom don't be embarrassed if I star to tell about my fears when I was little or about my trips, my problems, my dreams. To be honest one time happened I met a guy whit I could speak about this type of things, but the fear between us and to going towards new afraid us. It was just a lovely company just for a night. A really lovely company. But look, I said you, the fears was more strong than ourselves. And maybe was the faith, because you decide to came back to me, in the while in which I was supposed to can think about other things instead of you. How beautiful it'd been if we had continued our path ? But i suppose we was looking away, not in the same direction. Actually, you. I don't hate you. I love you, but i don't really LOVE you as we was engaged. It's a different feeling from before. Do you think we are running in circle ? After two years. After new experiences. Why we always try to don't lost ourselves ? Why are maybe like the Endless Knot ? Maybe I will rejoinder my joy, my Nirvana, broken it. What do you think ? It could be. Because I swear you, I don't need you. But I still love our speeches. Platonic Love.

Hugs. Maybe it's time to stop thinking of being able to control your feelings, to be able to decide if it's the moment of parting or to emotional hugs. Love each other, that's that. Although you are so far away. Always say to him what you're thinking, because it's since your speeches it could sketch out everything. `Maybe if you are so cold you could impair the relation's sincerity don't follow it the right natural track. The reason for writing to someone could be simply telling them something. It's lovely that someone wants to tell you something.

First notebook entry: Introducing myself Hello there! My name is Micol. Well... i decide to sing myself in Italki because i wanna try to improve my english, and i think the best way to do that it's interact with native speakers ! :) About myself... Actually i live in London and i moved to here from 4 mouths. I took this decision in order to improve my english knowledge and also for live a new great experience! I hope as well here to find my right track... because this year i take a gap in order to have more time thinking about what i wanna do in my future and which university start. I really don't know if start psychology or school of fine arts ( for graphic design or applied art and technology ). I'm learning english because after having spend 5 years at high school studying it my level was very low. and now i wanna do by myself ! I wanna learn this language in order to have more opportunity in the future and also because i love could speak with other people from other country and discover their habits. I also learned at school french and spanish but now i forgot most i learnt. I hope to improve my english as soon as possible and speak with people with no problem and hesitations.