Failure Each time when I try to express sorrows in English - it looks pretty awful... Something strange happened to me this year. Something really strange. Probably it's just stage of becoming more mature..? Yeah, though my age - 31, I don't feel myself pretty confident. Suddenly this summer I won scholarship that provided by Indian government. But I couldn't study. When I arrived, I found that Indian twelfth grade is not equal to Russian. And also I completely forget all studying material grasped during 1st year in Russian university that could eliminate difference. After 1 month of trying to renew knowledge and 1 month of depression after my conclusion that I don't have enough time to do that, I left India. Emotionally I still can't perceive - what happened? Changing environment, adaptation, inspiration, understanding that I can't, returning home in 2 months - too fast.