Competition Someone has told me that workplace just like a battlefield or arena. I don`t know. And I think if it is it would be terrible. I don`t want to hurt anyone one around me. And I never gonna to take advantage of somebody to make a promotion for myself. My friends remind and urge me to be strong all the time. So that nobody can bully or take advantage of you. In their words, workplace is cruel. And I agreed with them. What I did was totally accordance with that and set it as my criterion [be strong and fright for something you should own]. I realized that strongness for strongness`s sake. That is not the real me. Don`t go to the path that is good in someone`s eye. Even though the path is good but if it is not fit you, it means nothing. So just be yourself. Even though it might be a little bit clumsy. But I am what I am.

2017.4.05　Being Busy It has been a long time since last time I wrote down diary. Actually I don't want to skip this routine. I like to do that. Oh I sorry I told a lie, I do not like write diary but I know that is a good way to improve my English. So I have to like it. I was so busy recently. No matter at work or private life. When I finished my work and on my way home, I remembered Huhu said she do not want time passes so fast. I didn't understand why she don't. Because I expected that time could pass as soon as possibly at that time I was working so hard but I still acted like a idiot. But now I am busy than previous. I have not sufficient time to learn English like before. I felt uneasy with elapsed time without learning something.

2017.3.30 Enjoy my life A co-worker chatted with me during rest time. We talk about life, relationship, all the ordinary subjects. "Why you don't find a boyfriend and get married, don't you feel lonely? " I asked her. She smiled and said, "do you feel lonely?" And i answered, "yes, i am. Especially, when I stay at home alone in weekend's evening." She said after heard my answer, I have no longer felt lonely now. I start to enjoying my life after my failed marriage. Never waste you time to the nonsense things or person, just enjoy your life, you can do everything you want as long you are single. As for me, living with my sweetie cat and hanging out with my lovely friends were my best joy. I have no time to feel lonely. You are still young so you probably feel lonely and vacancy, but you will start enjoying your life after you got through enough." I don't know if just because I am young or I haven't gotten through enough, I still feel lonely. All I know is I should start enjoying my life.

2017.3.29　Time We need time to prepare a dinner, to go to somewhere we want to go and so on. Almost everything needs time to be finish. So if you set up a goal, no matter whether it is hard or not, please do not be anxious. Do not try to push yourself to skip the importance steps therein. That is what I should remind myself. Every time I lost the opportunity because of my incompetent, I would be anxious. So I have to remind myself like that, and keep it up. And maybe there are some things you cannot change even though you have sufficient time. For instance, trying to be the person who like to do household chores. That is why my house is messy invariably. It will become disordered soon after I tidy it up. Oh. Good night.

2017.3.28 Appreciation I really appreciate people who revised my notebook. Seeing the correction written by kind people, I cannot help to laugh. The mistakes I made was so stupid. But I suppose to make the stupid mistakes continually. Even though I think that learning foreign language is hard and needs courage to accept yourself who keeping make mistake, I won`t give up. I was worried about whether I am able to prepare all paper promptly to taking my parent here. The procedure is annoying and complicate. I even can`t sleep well because of worrying about it. But thanks to my co-worker`s help, I almost done by now. I appreciate her so much. And my wish has came true. I got a work today. Even though that work was got from the woman we all don`t like. But i still appreciate her. I will do it well. Hope everything goes well.

2017.2.27 Circle A frozen day. I thought winter has gone and no more cold. But today`s weather told me I was wrong. A co-worker asked me have you accustomed yourself to Japan`s winter as we met at the stair by chance. My answer was no. I was depressed these day. There are a lot of irritating chores in my mind that i have to think about. That makes me depressed. But now I felt better. Maybe that`s just a routine, a circle. Happy, depressed, disappointed, fulfilling comes up one after one without order. One day i will break through that circle and be involved into another one. I hope that i would have more work to do tomorrow.

2017.3.23-3.24 My short-term holidays was wonderful. I went to to concert with my friend. We got very good seats, not too far from the stage, not too close to. We were so lucky! The concert just like a party for Chinese in japan, cause the singers is Chinese, almost all the audiences are Chinese. When we were sitting and waiting for the concert to begin, I found an interesting phenomenon. There was big difference between Chinese and Japanese when they are waiting for show`s beginning. Chinese will be exciting. Talking or taking photos with their companions, playing in the joy way. But as for Japanese, they just will sit and wait for it quiet. And no photography during the whole show. Go back to the show, that was excellent. I enjoyed that so much. If somebody ask me to describe that show for one word, I will say [ that is a warn, healing, inspiring and funny concert.] And yesterday we walked around Tokyo street aimlessly. To be honest, I like that way to relax. I live in Tokyo`s countryside, rarely see the sight of urban. I like to walk around urban, and compare how much different between countryside and urban. To enjoy the difference. We walked and walked, eventually, we got to the hotel that we stayed in when we just arrived in Japan. We didn`t do it on purpose, just as it happens. I admit that recalled me a lot by coming back there. I came to Japan with my friend at the period we know nothing about Tokyo. Now we were we, the hotel was as it is, but something was different. We got improve. Happy to go back to the beginning with my friend. It was something for me, cause my friend would go back home country next month.

2017.3.22 I did a stupid thing. I booked an English training book on the internet last night, i found the delivery fee was too expensive for me when i was going to check out. So i canceled that order. i though that i had already cancel it. But actually i had not. When i got home after my work, i found the attempted delivery notice, which means i failed to cancel it. That is fine, i am bound to be with you, haha. And then i was waiting for that delivery with joy. When i was taking shower i heard my doorbell rang. Ogm, seriously? Now? I have to rush out from bathroom and grabbed a clothes to wear, and said please wait a second!!

2017.3.21 The drama i am recently watching disappointed me. in the large extent, the reason why i was obsessive with that drama is the friendship between the two heroines. They suffered a lot, but no matter what they got , they always supported and encouraged one another unconditionally. That really impressed me. I felt hope and strength. But now, things are changed. There is a split on their friendship. But it is fine, that just a drama. A friend asked me something about love and marriage. I was wondering why people reverse the procedure of love. People ask the other side whom people felt good at when they met about his/her opinions on the issues of house, children-raising, even the duty of caring parent etc before they fell in love each other. The friend told me that people are busy nowadays, they even have no time to think about relationship or they were fail to meet up with the right person. When they realized that they no longer have time to wait, they have to accelerate to find the person out. they do not want to waste one minute, so that they became more and more direct and purposive. Even thought i dont agree with this opinion on relationship, but maybe i will be the person like that in the early future. Cause what i believe is that people` mind would change with increase of age.