a Russian said the past ten years were like a nightmare for her. It also makes me think about “10 years on, I wake from a Yangzhou dream — all of I’ve won: a callous name in the green mansions”. Then I dreamed that I was on a boat in south Jiangsu. I seemed to be destined wandering according to this. Sir, do you have a dream cutting knife? Cut out the nightmare for me. You shake your head. You mean that without pain, happiness will never be complete.  Dreams are the deepest motivations for struggle. In midlife I realized that suffering is a kind of happiness. At least I'm still alive.