@Bruce         Thanks~~~~

"Do I look like a rebellious adolecent child?"---Ale

     Not in specific.  Disagreements between family and youths   are common, and there is no simple answer as to who is  correct in their thinking.

  Parents want their children to be practical.   Practical   looks to some like  having boredom or meaninglessness as a destiny.

     One thing is certain however.  Those who would truly emerge as adults,  must eventually take control of their own destiny.   Whether that includes   following inner guidance exclusively,  or  following  the practical expectations of Family   is entirely up to the individual  to choose.

A   good parent,   prepares a child to take control  by about the age of 18.

   There is a kind of spiritual fault I have seen in my own country. It has to do with adults trying to

"parent" their children beyond a certain age,  like about 18 or so.   After all,  for 18 years they have the opportunity to teach and guide.  Then, it is time for the adults to stop "parenting".

   In that regard, I never tell my children what they "must do".  I can suggest a think or two, but only as a courtesy. I don't criticize.

 Anyway Ale, that is the guideline that I have tried to follow with my own children.

If you have a disagreement with family,   give it some reflection and make your choices   based upon the best information you can find.

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  Kahlil  Gibran  wrote on this subject Ale:

"On Children

And a woman who held a babe against her bosom said, "Speak to us of Children." And he said: Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself. They come through you but not from you, And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you. You may give them your love but not your thoughts. For they have their own thoughts. You may house their bodies but not their souls, For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams. You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you. For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday. You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth. The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far. Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness; For even as he loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable."------- <a href="http://www-personal.umich.edu/~jrcole/gibran/prophet/prophet.htm">http://www-personal.umich.edu/~jrcole/gibran/prophet/prophet.htm</a>;

(1) "If mankind abandons Jesus Christ, they will treat me no better." means if u don't be much good to others, they will do the same,so if they are dead in war, u can get throught it easier,right? ---Ale

   Let me start the idea fresh.   It means that if any iconic and innocent figure  in humanity, can be rejected and badly treated, it is reasonable to suppose that I shall not be treated well by a general humanity. This bears out in my experience.

(2) "But when u are in a peace time and living a common life, will it be a pity u never get too much close with others?"---Ale

    Agreed. It is most unfortunate  that I developed huge barriers and held people at a great distance.

I can look back and see that there were some very nice people who probably tried to open communication with me, but I demonstrated some very   Fear-Based  characteristics.

I recognized eventually, that I lived like a Prisoner  of my own thought and feeling. But insight like that was not what reall made it possible for me to change.  Looking back, there were people show showed love to me, and who assured me that forgiveness  was possible.  I did not do anything myself. Other people carried me until I learned "how--to--walk"  on my own.

@Bruce  I totally agree with " before I care what someone else "thinks" they must show me that they can actually "think"."  I had an argument with my family a family,a few days ago. Because they used " I think " as a reason to fight against my decision. Before they said " I think" ，can they just search on internet or find others way to figure out the nature.I admit they are much elder than me and must exprienced more than me. But there are still some things they don't knoture. I don't want a " I think" , I need more convincing reasons~! Even if I know what they expect is I be good..... 

  Do I look like a rebellious adolecent child.....hahaha

"Military Acquaintances" is necesary when u are a soldier becuase death can be nearly during the war days. But when u are in a peace time and living a common life, will it be a pity u never get too much close with others?

"If mankind abandons Jesus Christ, they will treat me no better." means if u don't be much good to others, they will do the same,so if they are dead in war, u can get throught it easier,right?