I know

I know. I may not be the easiest person to deal with, or to be with, to take care of, or to be around. I can annoy people so easily. I know I'm sometimes just so unbearable to be around. I'm difficult. I'm fully aware of that. I don't have the best morals a person can have.

I'm sometimes too silly to think that things are as serious as I'd ever thought they would be now. Everything should be handled and thought of with care. I take things so lightly. I keep forgetting that I'm not a kid anymore. I know. I'm not the nicest person you'll ever know.

God, I remember when things used to be so simple. There was never anything to worry about. It was always about friends, or rebelling against parents. Though I never really went through that phase. I was never the rebel type. I actually had a really good relationship with my parents and my brother. If only things were that simple now. There is just so much to think about. To be aware of. It's like stepping through a pit of nails. Where you just have to be cautious of your every step.

I promised that I would work hard. I know I haven't been doing my part of the bargain. I've been slacking off. I promise, I'll do my very best. I'll try.

It would be nice. Please msg me, I almost missed this entry.