Mother's death

Several days ago, I was working with my laptop and my mother was near the heater, and suddenly, her hairs attracted me and I saw noticed that a number of her hairs are were white. I then I said to myself, :"one day she once had only black hairs, and but in future time all of those hairs will be become whiter and whiter and white and until, At last finally, all of her hairs will be white." , I hate white because white will tells me: "one day you will miss lose your mother," and I love Bblack, because, it tells me: "your Mmother is still young and beautiful." ,

I tried to control myself because I do not like my Mmother seeing my tears,.
I wish want to die before my Mmother does because then I can will not see her death.
:'(
Is your Mmother still alive?
Is Are all her hairs white?

I'm sorry to hear that! :( I hope this correction helps you though~