A Mixed Feeling

Today, one of my roomates was crying in the dormitory when we went sleep at noon.
I hadn't fallen asleep yet when she started crying, because I was the last one to come back to the room.
Hearing her the sound of her weeping, I thought I should comfort her. But I was really *disgusted  by her and didn't want to talk to her in heart to heart.
What contradictory feelings!

*I really disgust her=she feels disgust for me

I was disgusted by her=I felt disgust for her

A Mixed Feeling

Today, one of my roomates cried in the dormitory when we went sleep at noon.
I haven't fallen asleep when she started crying, because I was the last one to come back room.
Hearing her sound of weeping, I thought I should comfort her. But I really disgust her and don't want to talk to her in heart.
What a feeling of contradictions!