My colleague said, “if I were you, I couldn’t tolerate, I will quit.” I said, “if not because of my knee pain, I would definitely look for a new job.” She said, “Even though you find a new job, the employer doesn’t know you have a knee pain.” I said, “but they will find out sooner or later. If it would effect my work, I still will be failed.” When I read the Bible with my teacher, she asked me to explain “LORD, let me know my end, the number of my days, that I may learn how frail I am.”, I couldn’t stop my tears. She didn’t say too much, just showed a lot a sympathy. My physical therapist refused to treat me anymore. Even though he wants to, the insurance doesn’t cover the anymore. I can’t pay, he can’t continue. I went to see a new doctor, he found the problem, but he can’t solve the problem.